Chlo E. - UNCLEAR Lyrics

It's unclear how I got to this state
Some blame daddy issues, some fate
But I don't care to debate
Anymore

Either way I'm lying here, on the floor
Crying out, please take me Lord
Feeling like I've been here before

But I don't wanna die (I don't wanna die)
This just isn't much of a life (No, no, I don't wanna die)

I don't know why I do this
Don't know why I put me through this (Don't know why I)
You abused me, gave me bruises
But I still stay
I chose this
I think that I, need a minute
Gotta go, come back in it
Traumatized and I get it
My triggers have no limit
Ooo, I can't think straight when you
Abuse me like you do (Why did you say that?)
Hope you got some help for all your issues
I can't sleep
Need to drown you out (Drown you out)
The upside is that you're gone now (The upside)
And I won't ever let you back in this house (You're never coming back)
I burned it down (down)

'Cause I don't wanna die (I don't wanna die, swear I wanna stay alive)
This just isn't much of a life
I choose me this time (I choose me)
I choose me
I choose me
I choose me, this time
This time, this time, this time, this time

It's unclear how I got to this state