Chloe Defector - Cloudy Day Lyrics

When I went down to the smoke shop to buy myself a torch
I wonder if they knew what I would use it for
I wonder if it's really f*cking obvious
Cause I broke it before I walked out the door

But I didn't notice that I did until I got back home
So I'm killing all my lighters and my thumb
I'm running out of luck and I don't give a f*ck
So I'll smoke up until my face is numb

I wonder what I look like from the outside
If I look like I'm dying or I'm fine
I'm so f*cked up I barely know which way is up
I wonder if that stranger knows I'm high

I think I might succumb to paranoia
I haven't slept or eaten for three days
I don't know who but someone's out to get me
I am a f*cking disgrace

I think I might give in and be a tweaker
I could go insane and that would be the end
But it hurt me when someone I loved did just that
And I could never do that to my friends

I wonder what I look like from the outside
If I look like I'm dying or I'm fine
I'm so f*cked up I barely know which way is up
I wonder if that stranger knows I'm high

I hope my roommate doesn't know
What I'm f*cking doing in our shared home
I'm rewiring my brain into
A concoction of stimulants and brain stew

My eyes feel like they're gonna bleed
Dried up and bulging out my skull
My mouth is dry my face is numb
F*cked up and spun out in my room

I wonder what I look like from the outside
If I look like I'm dying or I'm fine
I'm so f*cked up I barely know which way is up
I wonder if that stranger knows I'm high

I wonder what I look like from the outside
If I look like I'm dying or I'm fine
I'm so f*cked up I barely know which way is up
I wonder if that stranger knows I'm high