chri$$ - Ill (feat. Zainab Darong) Lyrics

No one ever loved
No one ever lost as hard as I
No one ever came
No one ever saw the crystal line in his eyes
Stary sky paradise in his eyes
I'm in his arms don't leave me now
Crystal line don't fail me now
Yeah
This dreams all coming true now
Uh
I been feeling this moment so long
I been dreaming this moment so long
It's like I can't even feel
A lonely cloud floating now as my pen touches the paper now
Picture a world with a few suns
Where gray skies are blue but blue skies are white
So when we all disappear
We see the light in our eyes it feels true to our eyes
No let's not despise one another let's start healing each other
So much violence in the world we can't just run away from it
We all going through it
I see the weakness in this new generation it's ugh
Damn
So where we are right now
We in the epidemic crimes all over look at the news
It's just politics and negativity what's gotten into me
I'm just tryna spread my message through my lyrical ability
It's just
Me myself and I in this world that's how I'm living
These killing and attacks man it just seems so vivid
But just like Martin Luther said we are God's children but
I guess when they say you only have yourself in your life they really meant it
And every time I talk to them they're always like
Oh well that's just how it is
You're just gonna have to deal with it
Like shit dude I'm not f*cking perfect for you
I'm not what you want
You don't want me I'm a f*cking mess
But I love you and I'll call you back later
I'm just sick and tired of how lonely I've been
Reminiscing high school and the memories we had as kids
Just running around in the street not giving a damn
But then getting jealous over boys you were with it made me childish
Taking it straight to the heart like we aren't together as kin
It's just so frustrating it never gets off of my mind
I can't forget about what I've heard about you in the past
It's like it haunts me every second like this just won't last
My god but Cris It's the past god dammit don't you get it
It's old news now I only love you and that's all that matters
I don't want another dude you're perfect the way you are
Your perfect imperfections are what keeps us together flying far
I can't help myself baby this feeling is too much
Man I'm just so afraid to lose touch it's not even your trust
I'm a needy motherf*cker and I got no damn support
It seems like you can handle it more and I don't feel important no more
I sit and cry every night just thinking about you
It's like I'm mentally ill and I can't seem to sit still
I'm tired of hearing bullshit from other people who know more than I do
I know that you were hiding it but I just hope that you weren't lying too
But at the same time you love me so much and I can really tell
I know you regret your mistakes and wish it all was erased
But these mistakes can't be erased and what is done is done
What did I expect from you shit you came from a rough place
Surrounded by assholes and f*ckers that took you for granted
I guess it could be worse but shit I'm still crying but no one's buying
Does this make me a man or a bitch well I don't know
I guess if you look at it I can't seem to tell
Baby I love you so much and you know it but holy shit
I can't take this shit anymore it's gonna f*cking kill me
Realize that this shit is only temporary
But all I'm asking for you right now is to speak the f*cking truth to me
Are you far away
I said you far away
I can't see you anymore
Anymore
I said anymore