chri$$ - Through My Eyes Lyrics

If you step into my shoes
Maybe then, maybe then a then you'll know
If you see it through my eyes,
Maybe then, maybe then you'll then you'll go
Oh baby then you'll know
I woke up in the morning drenched in a cold sweat
Tears rushing down my face wondering when's my last breath
I never felt so scared in my life
When I'm walking around my body is completely numb to everything
I can't function, I can't study, I can't focus
I can't feel, I can't see and I can't dream
My body sweating my anxiety out the roof again
My mama in the other room sleeping as I can't contain the pain I'm feeling
It's so deep it hurts
I can't talk to anybody
Nobody appreciates what you do until you're dead and gone
I was never loved
I never had anyone to talk to goddamn
See the picture through my eyes, it ain't pretty as the skies
All I know is I'm alive, everything's gon' be alright, but
The pain hurts so bad I don't know how I'm gonna survive man
How am I gonna survive man
If you step into my shoes
Maybe then, maybe then a then you'll know
If you see it through my eyes,
Maybe then, maybe then you'll then you'll go
Oh baby then you'll know (yeah)
F*cking shit dude
Listen
You told me you cared about me, but you weren't interested
I showed you what I was and you didn't even listen girl
What ever happened to the gram I gave you
All I showed you was how I can make your life better, but you were scared
You didn't want me, we both knew that
Especially that other dude you were with last week
We made eye contact, you knew exactly what happened
I know you didn't care from the start, but my heart just fell right apart
You didn't have to lie to me, you could've told me the truth
I wouldn't be gripping on the mic and speaking up in the booth
Yelling and screaming so loud man this is really what I go through
Writing and crying as I think about you, damn
I'm subtracting my days instead of adding to 'em, that's how I feel
Disconnect from my peers, no one else can see the fear
As I wait for the right one
But what if she already came and I lost my chance and it's over
If you step into my shoes
Maybe then, maybe then a then you'll know
If you see it through my eyes,
Maybe then, maybe then you'll then you'll go
Oh baby then you'll know (Oh my god)
My anxiety is killing me, I can't breathe no more
As my momma sitting next to me believing in me
And she never wanted her son to be so hurt
Being thrown off the good world just so I can see the cruel world
Why are they doing this to me, why am I like this
Why do I need to take these pills so I can be a normal person
I don't feel normal, this isn't even right to me, f*ck
Because I
I never understood the world that I was in last year
I never understood the way that I was
I never understood that I had the power to change the world, with just my voice
Man how selfish I was for letting myself go with all the problems I had
Hurting my momma, I know she can't take it
I know she never wanted her kid to dread life like this
All she ever wanted was a happy kid happy life but f*ck
She gave me everything, she put a roof over my head
She made sure she put her life before me and everything
All I wanted was love, all I needed was someone to talk to and be with
Momma, thank you for always being there for me
Thank you for always being there when I was down
Thank you for always giving me the hugs and kisses I needed at night
But shit it looks like the results came in
Shit man
It's December 28th, 2018
I'm writing this song right now
'Cause I can't sleep at night
It's f*cking two in the morning
I'm just sitting here, gathering all my thoughts
Tryna put this verse out for you
But it's just so hard for me
I gotta wake up so early tomorrow, f*ck
God my life's a f*cking mess dude
I don't know how I'm gonna go through it
At least this shit's helping me cope with it
It's f*cken ABA forever
It's ABA forever
It's ABA forever