Chris Dali - Divergent Lyrics

Got the truth to what it means
From the source I derived I look
Cole the great said it all
The devil is the pride
When you put it all together It aligns
But if you got no pride
How the f*ck do you shine
To myself the truth i assign
Don't give a f*ck about the dollar signs
Though I know it's important
Be by myself never cordial
Wish I could take a portal
To the moon I know I'm not normal
Out of me they wanna get a rise
But I'm all clear
Blue skies
And I couldn't see the light
Ever since I was a child
So I just embrace the darkness
When they see it's night
They say good morning
They better pay attention and heed warnings
Everybody so fake Doomsday is calling
I know they'll find my words appalling
But I don't give a f*ck I'll say it regardless
Because I'm heartless
Caterpillar metamorphosis
But It turned me to a moth
I'm really dark inside no goth
Screamed out I hit her spot
Don't get Attach Bitches like to plot
Don't ask for the body count
You know it's a lot
Ain't on tying the knot
Just moving up the road of life
Every f*cking day is a fight
In my mind Dark though wanting to shine
Think like I'm running out of time
Loyalty is hard to find
Trust is hard to do
They can never take me for a fool
Lose my soul when I'm it the booth
The truth I pursue
Ones close want to see me lose
They won't say but that is the truth
They won't make a move
My anxiety fills the room
Everyday is gloom
Hope one day I can get to bloom
Peace in mind And start anew
Trust and love I never knew
I Hope that they are telling the truth
Without needing proof
But they pick and choose
Bitches out here wanna see you lose
Well that's how I see it from my point of view
And there was many times I did reviews
Look
Blind by the light
That is Shining bright
I'm starting to forget where I came from
Sky pitch black
And the only thing I see is doubt
I need constant love and affection
They say I'm best but I second guess
I've been on the grind so I Never rest
I'm Waiting for love after failed attempts
In the winter no heat
But I'm making heat
You can see dedication in my eyes
I work in the sun, till the sun down
I be breaking a sweat till it drips down
If I don't make it home then I passed out
Look
Nothing is better than making your mom proud
I shed tears when she broke down
I was helpless on the cold ground
No cold shoulder she was there
Beside me Like Siamese
My Adolescents
Was cool But nothing but lessons
I Swear to god
By 13 I was pulling my weight
By 14 I was cooking a plate For the fam
My dad in the cell turned me to a man
He gave me wisdom with a
Full proof plan
"Son you can make it just find a groove"
I wished I paid more attention to advice
So I wouldn't pay attention to a vice
When it's calling my name
Her Nickname was Mary Jane
Wasn't a fein cause I fought it back
I Only got lit at a my kickbacks
But it never evolved into deeper darkness
I was already in the Abyss
At the same time
I was losing my grip with reality
Crashed my car in snow
I was on my Knees
I was praying to god just to set me free
I was Feeling So numb
Couldn't feel my ki
Meaning No energy Surrounding me at all
Fingers were bloody but not from a brawl
Almost died but I didn't die
That's a close call
Only left with permanent scars And a closed case
Now I'm back In my city
Passing by my old place
Reminiscing bout the f*cking old days
How I'm true to myself
And gettin rid of Old ways
F*ck champagne No alcohol needed to fight my pain
I just need pen
To write down my name