I know my past aint been so righteous
Everyday I roll the dice
So you can judge me if you want to but
Youre not the one living my life
Steady pacing with my finger on the trigger got me contemplating murda
Lord save me from these feelings
Pacing with my finger on the trigger got me contemplating murda
I had it all figured out, this life shit
To tell the truth I never knew that it would end up like this
I write this in hopes that u might just
Save me for the night cuz last night at the fight club I was lit like a light bulb
I swear to God I spent the night w Lucifer
Held her close couldn't let loose of her
She swore Id find the truth in her (That f*ckin bitch)
I must admit she never tripped on all the drugs Id get She even knew my plug n shit
A penny for my thoughts, shit all I thought was this
If you didn't wanna do it why the f*ck aint u resist
I bet he thought that u was his man I just cant come to grips
Both nostrils full of dope the .45 pressed to my lips
Somebody save me
I know my past aint been so righteous
Everyday I roll the dice
So you can judge me if you want to but
Youre not the one living my life
Steady pacing with my finger on the trigger got me contemplating murda
Lord save me from these feelings
Pacing with my finger on the trigger got me contemplating murda
They tell me life goes on
But I still dont wanna deal with how I feel
I need something to numb my soul and I know what will
Wiggle my toes, got chills, pick up the phone, called bill
He told me a long ass story of how he almost got killed
He got what I want I bet u can guess where I ended up next I put his address into my GPS
They told me to get it how Im livin look at how Im livin sick of livin w regrets
F*ckin depression got me in this mess no wonder my daughter dont want nothin to do w me
Told me today that she basically thru w me what am I doin I miss her to death
Im livin a life but it sure aint the best Im holdin my head up w smoke in my chest
They killin my people in peace may they rest I hope that the sequel will be for the best
Im livin a life but it sure aint the best Im holdin my head up w smoke in my chest
They killin my people in peace may they rest I hope that the sequel will be for the best