Ok... First off
Happy Holidays to everybody listening
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I wanna take you back to the days where everything was simple then
Listen closely 'cuz you're witnessing
The story of a boy to a man, and all about the differences
Realizing he's a king that everybody else diminishes
Appreciating life, but understanding that it finishes
I know it's hard, but thats just what it is
Remember me, Michael and Dizzy used to play at the park
We was always together, That's my favorite part
We would ball all day - from the morning 'til dark
Then we would go to the crib playing Mario Kart
I just wish that every moment could last
We would scheme all day crackin' jokes and just laugh
It hurts to know I'll never see you again
Sometimes it's hard not to live in the past
I miss you Dizzy, you been gone for a while
I was sittin' up in class with my phone ringing loud
My momma told me you had passed, we just didn't know how
My sister came to pick me up, 'cuz i was living in Cloud
The only thing that's on my mind is I was scared to see your momma
She dealing with a pain, boy i don't have a clue
We pulled up to the house and she was right on the stoop
She hugged me so tight, she held me if i was you
Now - My momma nervous every time that I leave
Still remembering the week when I turned 23
I was pulling up to meet my sister Toya
By the field when 12 pulled me out the car and had me down on my knees
There were three
One was angry, yo, he start seeing red
The second one was quiet, but he had the gun to my head
The third one was in the squad and he was calling for assistance
Told me, "Any sudden movements..." Yo I knew i was dead
Toya pulled round the corner and said, "Y'all made a mistake"
"Did you even check the name? Did you run through the plates?"
They stripped for my wallet and they found my ID
They let me go, drove off with no apologies
And 'til this day I try not to think about it
I just think of what my grandmomma told me
"Baby boy, you better come and see about me"
I just hate the thought of her being alone
When i was younger we always had the family around
Some was scattered through the city, some was flying in town
My grandma always on a mission, she was always in the kitchen
Every holiday season she would always throw-down
And year after year I was always the same
When you're a kid you never think it could change
Somebody tell me how a family could bread?
I guess, Thats what happens when you get up in age
But now
She getting older and she need someone to care for her
She told me that she
She slowing down and she just needs someone thats there for her
And its- Its hard to hear because i love her so much
And i know that i don't tell her enough
But imma stay strong, Imma toughen it up
Love hard and don't you ever give up
This Holiday Season
Yea