Can't Tell If I'm in a Dream Video (MV)

I think I lost my heart
It's so easy to move on
It's so easy to say bye
These girls don't stay for too long

I only like them for a week
They fall in love in a day
They share their whole lives with me
And with their minds I still play

When did I turn so cold
I've been living in the ice
I've been longing for the real
Maybe I don't recognize

Can't tell if I'm in a dream
Surely I'm not in control
I'm just a slumber of lust
And in my mind I don't trust

I know my life is far from perfect
I know at night your love is worth it
I grow despite my lack of worship
I show delight despite inertness
In hopes of light my love disperses
My jokes at times are just diversions
I'm always nervous