Clairo - Just For Today Lyrics

Honestly, I didn't think I'd end up here
This time
Or anywhere at all
I'm distant just enough to never fall behind

Picturing the saddest scene
Of wearing bed sheets
And two pats on the back, "It just takes time"
It's getting late
Since when did taking time take all my life? Mmm

Mommy, I'm afraid I've been talking to
The hotline again
It's stirring, but the ripples always seek out the ones
Who carry me

I blocked out the month
Of February for support, mmm
At least I have this year
I won't be worrying anyone on tour, mmm
As we speak, I'm here to meet devils for tea
Peering 'round the corner of my life
I throw my drink into the faces of my demise

At thirty
Your honey's gonna ask you
"What the hell is wrong with me?"
And finally
An answer from your throat comes crawling
And you can proceed