Yesterday Video (MV)

I've been so grimy
I can't even believe this terrible timing
But why did I mind these
Emotional stresses and feelings of blinding
Terrors errors arrows bows
I'm feeling so lost and lonely
That human interaction seems too far and I'm incapable
Of syllables
Of dialog and prose
Conversation seems so undelectable
I can't even find the words to go
To get away, to end the day
Escape this interaction
I'm tired of people I'm tired of steeples
I'm tired of the part of me that's so evil
Grinding grinding grinding go
That's all I can do that's all I that I hold
That's all that's left to be mentally retainable
Retrainable
Bad habits
No
I'm weak and cold
And this is the karma that brought me to the end of the road
Lost and miserable
Causations the cause and now I'm accepting to know
I put my self here
I made my own fears
I gave myself these this shaken soul
I'm sorry it seems as if I've possibly misspoken
But my energies weak and my spirit has leaked
While the body's sabotaged and broken.
I'm not half the man I used to be
All my troubles seemed so far away
Now it looks as though they're here to stay
Oh I believe in yesterday
Lifted by the chemicals
Drifting due to emotionals
I'm here and not here at the same time
The same time I'm just so forgettable
I used to be that shiny light that shined so bright
Shining like a diamond
24/7 the grinder
But now my heart is cold and looks like I'm all out of light
Every wonderful thing around me
Tastes of pessimism and doubting
No delight
Shit
Everything requires me to be so bold
I'll just remain untold
Grinding grinding grinding go
This was the last time
That was the last try
This was the last free ride
The rest is gonna be charged against my spirit and my soul
These mistakes will follow me no matter where I go
I can feel the permanency of all of my life's discrepancies
Of all the ways I've gotten away with hurting everybody
But know that it will be weighed when I get to those crossroads
And I know already that I shouldn't have any high hopes of reaching gold
I'm not half the man I used to be
All my troubles seemed so far away
Now it looks as though they're here to stay
Oh I believe in yesterday
Grinding grinding grinding go
I can believe this I can believe this I can believe whatever I'm told
Grinding grinding grinding go
I can obey this I can be like this I will be whomever I should
Grinding grinding grinding go
I don't really need this I don't really need to be a part of this show
Grinding grinding grinding go
I can relinquish I can let go but myself I can't disown