Last year I admit that I felt suicidal
But this year is different I'm talking to God
He told me believe 'cause all Things Align
I can't see the vision, I'm way out of sight
He told me draw closer
Same time, mama called me a joker
I'm focused now
Made a lot of mistakes, but I'd make you proud
Butterflies take time
Let me pace myself
I give too much
It's never enough
Pour too much
I'm full of love
Hoping to receive
But I starve too much
Probably that's why I be acting up
Sorry mum, finding comfort in all the wrong places got me on cloud 9
But I'm dedicated to the healing now
Can't stay in this phase, I'm moving out
Trip!
It wasn't only bout the name calling
He wasn't lookin' to the next morning
He was lining up the rope
It was death calling
He was looking to the highs
And caught himself falling
If anybody would listen
Then He would just pour it
Who's there for us
Emotionless
End is near for us
He was choking staring down
At his Air Force
His eyes opened
He swore that he could hear God
Humongous it was way more
Not a mere force
Promised to go at it all over again
By any means
It's whatever
So we smile through the pain
Anything just feel to a little sanity
Views come in hues
Like a racist see humanity
Maybe Some day He might prolly put the fire out
He's watching the embers He see 'em dying out
If you hear him then you hear his soul crying out
He chose life no dying now
Forever lit
No dying out
I'm a little addicted to the mess
I don't know how to put it down
Keep saying I'ma quit
I've been on it for a while
I don't know how to drift to a safe zone
I done seen how a lot of you play
Snakes, snakes in the grass
In the night time is when they all come alive
Truth is, ghost friends are never here to stay
How? I mean why?
I'm facing this. I'm aging miss
Why should I be like this?
I'm broken ma
Call my pops again like where you at?
He holla back at me like what's up?
I'll be home again, that's a fact
I'll be home, you'd never lack
(You'd never lack)
Tossing and tossing around
I be up in the clouds when I'm under their skin
I be up in the sheets when I cry out for love
Feel the tension beneath, it's the pleasure above uh
My scars are big, heart is bigger
Dodging bullets all my days
Dem foolish ways
Need a break
Honestly I just need a break from reality