Trap Van Video (MV)

Crazy how this life be
Rainy on dry beach
Daily I'm reminded that I'm changing
Yeah I might be
Feelin' like I might need
Healin' from the light green
Dealin' with this pain I'm bleedin'
Peel it off when I bleed
What happens when I'm high above the clouds
And I can't see the ground I'm looking down
Surrounded by the crowd that wants to see me drown
Thought I found another way around it
But I fell, hands down
This empty town is feeling like a cell
And I am breaking out
Trapped, F*ck all them books get me a tab
I'll try to write my raps with a hook, leave out the scraps
I'm lookin' left I see a young boy carrying a strap
He was barely sixteen couldn't be older than that
How should I react it could have been me if I stayed back
Never tried to act I only shoot threes, can't shoot a mac
But when I push the metal up to my brain, and hear a clack
Its the only time to level the pain, when its black
Misunderstood, I realize that I cant be myself
But I say I'm good, and analyze the man inside my shell
Wishin' I could, charge up my power goin' super saiyan
Stand where I stood, and understand the problems I been facin'
Misunderstood, I realize that I cant be myself
But I say I'm good, and analyze the man inside my shell
Wishin' I could, charge up my power goin' super saiyan
Stand where I stood, and understand the problems I been facin'
I feel like there's a war in my head
I ignore it I'm bored of
Sweeping up the floor from your mess
Exploring my options but caution
It might lead you to lead
Instead I head in the direction
But I have some regrets
None the less, I'm always stressed
I'm tryna learn a lot but momma tryna tell me stop
Why you tryna be a boulder when you're just a little rock
You will get there when you're older but for don't watch the clock
I used to lean upon a shoulder but she left she took a walk
She tried to find her path cuz in the past she felt so trapped
I held her back I didn't understand where it began tears in my hand
I was never one for showing emotion but I was broken
Tryna find a way to breath when I was always f*ckin' chokin'
I was tryna find my way
Tryna find a reason for seein' another day
Sleepin' through the seasons depression I couldn't shake
Swimmin' deeper underwater in this freezing lake
(Pull the f*ckin' trigger)
Misunderstood, I realize that I cant be myself
But I say I'm good, and analyze the man inside my shell
Wishin' I could, charge up my power goin' super saiyan
Stand where I stood, and understand the problems I been facin'
Misunderstood, I realize that I cant be myself
But I say I'm good, and analyze the man inside my shell
Wishin' I could, charge up my power goin' super saiyan
Stand where I stood, and understand the problems I been facin'
Misunderstood, I realize that I cant be myself
But I say I'm good, and analyze the man inside my shell
Wishin' I could, charge up my power goin' super saiyan
Stand where I stood, and understand the problems I been facin'
Misunderstood, I realize that I cant be myself
But I say I'm good, and analyze the man inside my shell
Wishin' I could, charge up my power goin' super saiyan
Stand where I stood, and understand the problems I been facin'