coldbrew - Thirteen Lyrics

You're not here
And I can't feel my eyes in my head anymore
Yeah I'll wake up and put the mask on
But that's what scares me the most
No clarity in my sense of self
You look at me like I'm someone else
Cause I'm the one who's laying in the dark room
Praying to whatever's left that I'll feel at home, you won't be alone
I'm your thirteen and you're my hell
You swore that you'd feel differently
But your eyes still read as grey
You look so fulfilled
Every time that I get pushed away
If I'm terrible, then why does everybody that I don't want want me
You're so convincing that I couldn't see how dark this could be
I swear to God, I'm so terrified
Cause what happens when everyone leaves?
Then it's just the one person that you and I can't stand
And that's me and we both know it
No clarity in my sense of self
You look at me like I'm someone else
Cause I'm the one who's laying in the dark room
Praying to whatever's left that I'll feel at home, you won't be alone
I'm your thirteen and you're my hell