Colliding With Mars - Forever Dreaming (feat. mxmtoon) Lyrics

I always feel as though I'm nothing more than just a shell
These incessant self-reminders make my life a living hell
If only I could be somebody else for just today
Maybe all of my small insecurities would slip away
I could analyze and pick apart what makes me who I am
Then I'll reconstruct the good in me and make a better man
Maybe one who isn't lazy or as scatterbrained at that
Or maybe I'll just sit alone and continue being sad
Complacency is key if you should recreate the past
First, you start with all your mistakes
Followed suit with bitter laughs
Once you've successfully stretched yourself beyond so very thin
You can reap the seed you sow and never be comfortable and your own skin

I know that you'll never hear this but I'm sorry for the person that I used to be
I'd like to think I've changed

I look like hell
I feel like hell
Jesus, I should be in hell

I wake to see that my friends aren't talking anymore
It's insatiable, my longing to just be with them once more
But times will change, it's silly to think friends will stick around
Times will change it's silly to think friends will stick around
I always feel as though it's like I'm running from the past
My imaginative outbursts, killing kings with slight of hand
The bridges I have burned from all the shitty things I did
But now I know I've made my bed and I'm the one who lies in it

I'm sorry for the person that I used to be
I'd like to think I've changed
But the person that I used to be has come back to kill me

I look like hell
I feel like hell
Jesus, I should be in hell