comets near me - Purgatory Lyrics

My neighbor is a drummer
In a heavy metal band
So if he hears my screaming
I think he understands
There's mildew in the shower
I've been standing here for hours
Inhaling toxic fumes
Before I cancel all my plans
My therapist thinks I'm improving
But I think he's saying that
Cause I pay him lots of money
To help me be less sad, but I'm still sad
Maybe in a month
Maybe in a year
I can find the strength to leave
The comfort of the bed
The hum of the TV
I'm in purgatory
Texts are left unread
Dishes in the sink
I just need some room to breathe
Can't move my body
But they'll never see
I'm in purgatory
I know a blueberry farmer
Who works every day and night
She always called me a vampire
Cause I never went outside
There's a spider in my bedroom
It's crawling out the vent
I would've let it live
But it won't pay me any rent
Like a ghost out in the graveyard
Or the stamps on an old postcard
I got nowhere I can go
Haunted by what used to be
But it'll never be what it used to be
Maybe in a month
Maybe in a year
I can find the strength to leave
The comfort of the bed
The hum of the TV
I'm in purgatory
Texts are left unread
Dishes in the sink
I just need some room to breathe
Can't move my body
But they'll never see
I'm in purgatory
I'm in purgatory
I'm in purgatory
I know I said I wanna die at least a thousand times
But there's unfinished business I got to take care of
What comes after's what I'm scared of
But I will try to bury my fears six feet under
Then I'll never have to wonder
If breaking out of isolation
Results in meeting expectations
Convince yourself you will
Maybe in a month
Maybe in a year
I can find the strength to leave
The comfort of the bed
The hum of the TV
I'm in purgatory