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I've been told I'm lazy
I've been told I'm crazy
I feel like I'm maybe all of the above
I've been called a waste, well
Never to my face, hell
I've been told I'm great and I'll never be enough
Yeah
I just woke up hoping that this would be a much better day
I just spent the morning up trying to learn how to meditate
Anything
That could get me right back into this old better state
But that ain't working maybe I just gotta go get away
Nope, that ain't it
No that's not what I needed
Swear I knew this before so why do I keep on repeating
Expecting different results
Like something's going to change
Guess I did this to myself I think I'm going insane
Okay look
One side telling me to go all out
Other side telling me stop
One side telling me to focus on the work and the job
Other side keep telling me "nah"
Keep telling me I
Need a second just to breathe
Need a minute just to rest
But part of me telling me I cannot do that
I'll get all the sleep that I need when I'm dead
Feeling like I'm at the edge
Tip-toeing on the ledge
Quit throwing in the towel
That's not how I'm going out right now not yet
But I confess
I been upset
Every morning I been laying in bed
Scrolling through feeds
Knowing it means
Nothing to me
I'm not my best
I've been told I'm lazy
I've been told I'm crazy
I feel like I'm maybe all of the above
I've been called a waste, well
Never to my face, hell
I've been told I'm great and I'll never be enough
I heard I'm successful
I just let them guess tho
They ask is it stressful doing what you love
I feel like I'm still lost
Maybe thats the real job
I pray that you're real god
And everything above
I was counting mistakes
Rounding up to be safe
Down and out but like roundabouts
I went back around now we straight
I went back around like twenty times
Or like 22 or like 29
Thought I cracked the code like a dozen times
Hope it pans out like it's sunny side
But I, know
All the circles have a role ay
Flowers die when the showers dry
That doesn't mean they didn't grow ay
Even if it doesn't show ay
Even if I never know ay
I see stars in the darkest nights
So i'll find light in this whole thing
I've been told I'm lazy
I've been told I'm crazy
I feel like I'm maybe all of the above
I've been called a waste, well
Never to my face, hell
I've been told I'm great and I'll never be enough
I heard I'm successful
I just let them guess tho
They ask is it stressful doing what you love
I feel like I'm still lost
Maybe thats the real job
I pray that you're real god
And everything above