Conqueror The Artist - My November Venting Lyrics

I don't know who I'm supposed to love
Tell me who I am supposed to hug
How do I know what I want?
How do I know where to search?
How do I know that me loving won't repeat the bridges I already burned?
Where do I turn?
Fighting the urge, fighting the purge
Full of emotions I cannot control them I'm waiting to see
How the story unfolds, this shit just hurts
Knowing that I took a turn for the worst
I know she loved me when I was at my f*cking worst
But I still done hurt her
I loved this girl to death, but we weren't dating
She had a man, it's God's plan
Why can't I understand that I done threw her hand away
And I left her full of pain, used her pain in vain
Why can't I just explain everything I feel without needing to write a song to it
I've been trying, I've been hurting
I've been fighting, I've been learning
I've been writing, pages turning
Lessons earning, it's concerning
Mm-mm, mm-mm, mm-mm, mm-mm, mm-mm
It's my fault, it's my fault
I hurt them, I hurt them
It's my fault, it's my fault
I hurt them, I hurt them
I felt like I was led on, just to find out that I wasn't
I have too many loves, am I being honest?
I don't even know me, I wanted to fix me
I guess that I changed me, and they will replace me
Will they erase me?
Can't let them phase me
I know that they want me, but I do not love me
So why would they love me?
And why would they want me?
And why would they seek me?
What are they seeking?
What are they seeking? What am I seeking?
Yeah