Controlled Asphyxiation - Smoking in the Suburbs. Lyrics

I just want to be happy
I just want to feel
Something that's not tired
Or f*ckin' wired

I want to be alone
But I don't want to be lonely
I wish someone would ask how I am
But I don't want anyone to know I'm a sham

I feel like my soul, my energy
Has died, buried, six feet down
And nothing I do can raise it
I need a necromancer or something

My soul is dead
I have no energy
My bones can't create sparks,
And my thoughts are miles apart
My legs are moving through quicksand

And everyday I wanna give up man
Always saying, "one more day"
But, f*ck
I don't wanna live life this way

The meds don't work
The drugs don't work
My own goddamn brain don't work