Unspoken Video (MV)

I feel f*cking depressed, like I have nothing left
To keep going but I'm a suck it up and puff out my chest
Cause I'm a man, my parents taught me not to be nothing less
I got to grind for my family so they don't deal with this stress

Yeah I know that I'm blessed, but my head's still a mess
I got to conquer all these demons, Satan's burning my flesh
Turned out that life is a test, and I hate it to death
Found your stairway to heaven but couldn't climb up the steps

I picked my own f*cking lane cause I couldn't ride with the rest
I know there's more I should confess but it's too tough to digest
So it's on to the next, these gold teeth ain't the flex
I'm just trying to get this money and like your khakis I'm pressed

I'm made faulty by design like someone cast a hex
I think I might be possessed, it's got me screaming at em
With my f*cking foot on they necks
Controlled Chaos till death, Thin On The Ground Records
Till I breathe my last breath

And I don't even know where I'm going
I'm feeling all alone, it's like I'm drowning in the ocean
I don't even know where I'm going
Sometimes it just feels like I'm going through the motions
I don't even know where I'm going
It's hard to gain the clarity I crave through commotion
And I don't even know where I'm going
It's hard to pick apart the truth with words unspoken
And I don't even know where I'm going
I'm feeling all alone, it's like I'm drowning in the ocean
I don't even know where I'm going
Sometimes it just feels like I'm going through the motions
I don't even know where I'm going
It's hard to gain the clarity I crave through commotion
And I don't even know where I'm going
It's hard to pick apart the truth with words unspoken

This bipolar disorder used to cause social distortion
But my range is powerful now, I'm feeling mighty, I'm morphing
And I ain't reached my optimal prime yet I'm just transforming
To all you other bumblebees, this is forewarning

If you touch my queen, I'll have a whole team of hornets swarming
Applying more pressure than Muggsy Bogues, and Zo Mourning
You thought you brought some heat until you feel my flame scorching
You can't get your thoughts clear because you're brainstorming

And you can't hear yourself think because the pain's roaring
And you can't even see straight from all the rain pouring
Cry me a river with them crocodile tears
While I'm unboxing a stockpile of juvenile fears

My self-awareness is key, I know who Ruda's meant to be
These other rappers rudimentary, their style is elementary
My dear Watson, watch me spit this toxin
And watch as I sprinkle a little chaos upon the nonsense

And I don't even know where I'm going
I'm feeling all alone, it's like I'm drowning in the ocean
I don't even know where I'm going
Sometimes it just feels like I'm going through the motions
I don't even know where I'm going
It's hard to gain the clarity I crave through commotion
And I don't even know where I'm going
It's hard to pick apart the truth with words unspoken
And I don't even know where I'm going
I'm feeling all alone, it's like I'm drowning in the ocean
I don't even know where I'm going
Sometimes it just feels like I'm going through the motions
I don't even know where I'm going
It's hard to gain the clarity I crave through commotion
And I don't even know where I'm going
It's hard to pick apart the truth with words unspoken