Cool Dark - Don't Lyrics

I'm a spineless procrastinator
Used to getting all without an effort
Tired everyday
Done for
I'm a hopeless romantic
Unable to quit wanting
Until I get it
Then I leave it
I really don't get it
And I lose interest
Like a prince on his birthday
Everything loses its shine
In time
But then I cry myself to sleep every night
And then I
I just wanna die
I think I wanna die
Other's would work
And work some more
I can't even lift a finger
Because my head is full of hurt and lies
And in them I linger
I justify
At the start
When I lost my spark
My talent, my heart
I got the hurt
Now I can't make it stop
And I still want it all
The things I didn't know I had
I want to play the players
And make them hurt right back
And yes, I'm a pampered fool
With nothing significant to lose
So I paint it all blue
Until it covers you too
I remember wanting to get hurt
I always wondered how it felt
I remember loving snow and ice
Oh, how easy they would melt