Coolfly - In My Shell Lyrics

What's the point of life?
What's the point of even trying?
When I wake up from the night, I always feel like f*cking dying
I'm about to pull the sirens, i'm disguising my self violence
I been trying to push through but I feel like my angel's f*cking lying
I'm keeping silent, the devil told me to keep quiet
F*ck the devil on my left shoulder
Man I grieve kindness
I push everyone away, and complain, i'm afraid and alone again
I've got nothing to gain from my mistakes, so i'm gripping the blade.
Won't stop coz healing's insane
Blackjack coz I'm dealing with pain
Got my cards, but unsure on how I should play
So i'm just grinding away
At this rap shit, writing never recording, procrastinating, abort it
Mentality, I export it
Never feeling important, deport the feelings that haunted me for centuries
You bet nobody can see the best in me
Telling me to walk, like my name's comethazine
Commitment to life as a whole is pressuring, and now they pressure me
To be different and free
But when you're raised by dogs you're bound to get a couple flees I mean
I'm just, moving on with life hoping to better it
Coz right now my days are so f*cking repetitive
And right now I feel alone and irrelevant
And yes i'm a pessimist, i'm negative, insensitive
And overall contemplative
Driving past my school's the only way that I can pass it
Walking down this lonely road and still i'm getting car sick
Now i'm gonna crash and go to sleep inside my casket
Now i'm gonna crash and go to sleep inside my casket