If I die tomorrow
Give a note for me and then hopefully
I'll finally have a way to get it out
While I'm alive I really won't without a doubt
I don't know how to say it out loud
But these delusions got me feelin' so crowded
Adrenaline in my veins hopin'
I won't get stuck in my ways copin'
Sole reprieve comin' from the loud
All my exes listen to my sound
And yet I feel like I'm the fangirl
'Cause I'm wantin' you to just be mine, mine
Allerlei, all kinds of ways I try to get to you
Virtualize, never mind the things I say I like of you
I'm just joshin', does that just fix our vibe then?
I still get kinda' jealous when you talk to other guys
And I know we not a piece but I can't help to think we are
You touch me all these ways and we do things inside your car
Far away but I'll make time
Day-long flight but I'll be fine
'Cause when you pin me down and kiss me it's by you that I'm defined
I drink like you, I smoke like you
I talk like you, I think like you
All inconvenience is a leisure if I go through it with you
I will not speak to no one else
No one will get me quite like you
If you abuse me I'll cry happily 'cause I'll know you love me too
I don't know how to say it out loud
But these delusions got me feelin' so crowded
Adrenaline in my veins hopin'
I won't get stuck in my ways copin'
Sole reprieve comin' from the loud
All my exes listen to my sound
And yet I feel like I'm the fangirl
'Cause I'm wantin' you to just be mine, mine
"Don't care," but time's froze
Mind blank, she'll never know