Cozi - Really? Lyrics

Yeah
Yeah
A toxic mindset on my phone at night shift
A lot of things that I wish I could've unsend
Now a lot of things left unsaid
A lot of things left on red
Now my wrist turns red
So I take drugs just to numb the pain
I'll drown the thoughts I have in gin instead
I should've been home sober
And not drunk again I know babe
But that's love babe
Yeah that's love

You'll be remembered for
All the love you left on Earth
So say it while you feel it before
It's written down in stone and dirt
You have nothing to lose really
So give it all away
It's only love really
Do you trust me? really?
Do you feel me really?
Do you believe the things that I say really?
God made love a drug
He is my dealer and my savior
He's been busy dealing
Busy-busy telling everything
You said you loved me huh?
Really?
All the arguments we have are just silly
You wanna break up? really?
'Cos my wrist only bleeds blood and not
Diamonds like I was a flood
I wish I had millions
Really

I loved you deeply
You said you need me
Now say it while you look into my ocean eyes like Billie
So tell me

Do you love me again really
A part of me rushes to conclusions because it's simply
Because I have no reason to trust nobody
Love is a drug and I'm addicted
Yeah I'm an addict
I got half a gram of Ivory
You got all of me
Cold dead stare in my eyes when I say your name
Lilly nah it's not
Is it fair really
No
But life was never meant to be
Though you had my back
And then I turned around and saw you with a blade in hand
And I thought "f*ck me really?"
That's why I prefer my new love
Whiskey
She always listens when the glass is empty I'm feeling the same
Yeah I'm feeling the same
Really?
Yeah really
A part of me is going insane I can feel it already

Yeah
Is it my fault really that I don't know where to go
Is it my fault that I'm looking clearer
Looking into the mirror
I'm talking to the man
But I don't see nobody here
I'm all alone like Harry Potter on the floor
Looking at the mirror see what I want in life
Only thing I see is you by my side
Yeah I'm trying to see it clearer really
Yeah really
If I'm going to hell anyway
I don't care if the vodka burns my throat on the way
I never had problems talking really
Standing in front of people say what I
What I feel really
So God listen to my sins and my confessions
When my mind is soaked in percentage
Mixing everything that I have
Just to the pain and insecurities
Mixing gin and honey whiskey just to feel some sweetness
In this dark life
'Cos when I'm drunk I feel I'm strong and can say what the f*ck that I like
Without being judged
Yeah God I know its wrong
But in the church they say that God loves everyone
Unless you're not white and straight
Lately it seems the angels are losing the battle on my shoulders
Either way this pain that I'm feeling
Do you feel my really?
Do you feel me really?