The noise that
Is in me
That spins me
Just won't stop
The thoughts that
Are racing
Faster, faster
Tense me up inside
I react
And act out
Not thinking
No spaces
To stop this dance
The feeding
Of monsters
Is habit
So old
It's automatic now
From seeing
To thinking
To feeling
To acting
Then reacting
No spaces
No Choices
Just momentum
That pushes
Me to the next
When will
There be time
To live life
Beyond this
Chaotic waltz
How can
I claim my
Thoughts back
From this
Psychotic passion play
One breath
Then two breaths
Then three
Trying to rest
Thoughts come
Thoughts go
Like clouds
In a clear sky
My mind
Is not them
Is not me
Just Patterns
I can let it go
Spaces
In breathing
In heart beats
In thought forms
Take my thinking back
Now I'm
Much closer
To seeing
The causes
And conditions of it all
By taking
Back these spaces
These moments
Tiny Bardos
That I wasted before
Finely
The clouds
Have cleared
I'm a Rainbow
Now