Crumbcatcher - Senescence Lyrics

I'll watch the clouds retreat
Let the blood rush to my feet
Cracked the code to my defeat
And let it go

I'll let it go

Is it crazy that I think
In a separate timeline, there's a piece
Of me that wished I never believed
At all

At this point I'd love to wonder
I'd love to hope, I'd love to dream
I'd love to burst the clouds
And shape this life into something meaningful

Will I make it?
Is there room for me in heaven?
I don't think so

But still I'll try
To be a source of light
Even if I'm losing ground
I can't figure myself out at all

The color's missing from my memories
See my bright blue eyes reflecting off the tv
I swore
I'd never let myself get here

But I guess
It's inevitable
I guess
I was never cut out for this

Do you hear me talking in my sleep?
Do you hear me call for you in my dreams?

Do you hear me beg you not to leave?
Do you see me on the other side of this screen?

All I ever do is call for you
But I don't think there's any chance to
See your eyes glaring in the rear view
Like any of this ever mattered to me

Ever mattered to me

All I ever do is call for you

I had a dream
That I got to the end
And there was no one
There was nothin

Except myself
So much younger, in better health
The "naivety" stunt you pulled
Is killing me

When I die
Will I flash and burn out bright
There's a crack in the iridescent
Let it burn all my inflorescence

I'll cut off what I can save
Leave the flowers on my grave
And let myself move on to better things

At this point I'd love to wonder
I'd love to hope, I'd love to dream
I'd love to burst the clouds
And shape this life into something meaningful

Will I make it?
Is there room for me in heaven?
I don't think so

But still I'll try
To be a source of light
Even if I'm losing ground
I can't figure myself out at all

There's a song outside my window
There's a light inside my brain
There's so much left to discover
I hear music in everything

The light begins to flicker
The light begins to fade
I think it's 'bout time for me to feel
Think it's 'bout time for me to feel okay