I'm all alone with my thoughts again
I feel the walls in my head caving in
Can't handle this pressure, I'm drowning
Can't focus, I'm numb, heart's pounding
No I know I don't wanna be like anyone else
I just wanna be some more than myself
But that type of pressure's exhausting
That's when I knew
One more step and that is all it takes
To f*ck it up and throw my life away
I know that I'm real messed up
Feels like getting blacked out can fight it
But it's just way too damn tough
The hardest of drugs can't hide
Fill another cup, I'm tryna get f*cked up
I'm in my head, I'm in my head
I've been there enough
I'm tryna run, I'm tryna hide
But I can't outrun my mind
My memories fade but never die
Is this the time, is this the time?
My mind says I'm It's bitch, sit down
Every time I feel good, flips me upside down
Never had no say, only ever had doubt
If this is what it's bout, will I work it out?
I ain't never been one to listen to my problems My body tells me take a rest, I fill it with some vodka
Staying up till 4am and doing what I wanna
I know I need a break so I'ma do it all tomorrow
Tomorrow never comes cause I always stay up I'm in bed till 8pm but I never slept once
Cause I'm always in my head, I can't seem to doze off
And this is where it stops, is this where it stops?
One more step and that is all it takes
To f*ck it up and throw my life away
I know that I'm real messed up
Feels like getting blacked out can fight it
But it's just way too damn tough
The hardest of drugs can't hide
One more step and that is all it takes
To f*ck it up and throw my life away
I know that I'm real messed up
Feels like getting blacked out can fight it
But it's just way too damn tough
The hardest of drugs can't hide