Demi Lovato - HOLY FVCK Album Lyrics

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FREAK

Pinch me, singe me, inch me to the edge
Prod me, laud me, ungodly but heaven sent

Get your tickets to the freak show, baby
Step right up to watch the freak go crazy

I am what I am and what I am is a piece of meat
Take a bite just to watch me bleed, freak
Say what you want and what you want is behind your teeth
Ain't gotta spell it out for me, freak

Play me, you can cage me, even flame me
I don't care (I don't care)

Get your tickets to the freak show, baby
Step right up to watch the freak go crazy

I am what I am and what I am is a piece of meat
Take a bite just to watch me bleed, freak
Say what you want and what you want is behind your teeth
Ain't gotta spell it out for me, freak

Came from the trauma, stayed for the drama
Came from the trauma, stayed for the drama
Came from the trauma, stayed for the drama
Came from the trauma, stayed for the drama

I am what I am and what I am is a piece of meat
Take a bite just to watch me bleed, freak
Say what you want and what you want is behind your teeth
Ain't gotta spell it out for me, freak

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Skin of My Teeth

Demi leaves rehab again
When is this shit gonna end?
Sounds like a voice in my head
I can't believe I'm not dead

I'm alive by the skin of my teeth
I survived, but it got harder to breathe
Asking why doesn't make it easier, go easier on me
God damn it, I just wanna be free
But I can't 'cause it's a f*cking disease
I'm alive by the skin of my

Woo-ooh, woo-ooh

The reaper knocks on my door
'Cause I'm addicted to more
I don't need you to keep score
When I'm the one who's at war

I'm alive by the skin of my teeth
I survived, but it got harder to breathe
Asking why doesn't make it easier, go easier on me
God damn it, I just wanna be free
But I can't 'cause it's a f*cking disease
I'm alive by the skin of my

I'm just trying to keep my head above water
I'm your son and I'm your daughter
I'm your mother, I'm your father
I'm just a product of the problem

I'm just trying to keep my head above water
I'm your son and I'm your daughter
I'm your mother, I'm your father
I'm alive

I'm alive by the skin of my teeth
Won't you try and have some mercy on me?
Asking why doesn't make it easier, go easier on me
God damn it, I just wanna be free
But I can't 'cause it's a f*cking disease
I'm alive by the skin of my

Woo-ooh (alive)
Woo-ooh (I'm alive by)
Woo-ooh (the skin of my teeth)

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SUBSTANCE

Is anybody happy with life in the backseat?
Trying to master the art of detaching
Is anybody driving, is anyone asking?
Is anyone grasping that nothing lasts?

Whoa, I know we're all f*cking exhausted
Whoa, am I in my head or have we all lost it?

So I ask myself
"Am I the only one looking for substance?"
Got high, it only left me lonely and loveless
Don't wanna end up in a casket, head full of maggots
Body full of jack shit, I get an abundance
Am I the only one looking for substance?

I don't remember last week, got my head scratching
But everyone's acting like nothing is lacking
Think we might be crashing, everyone's laughing
Time is just passing yet, nothing lasts

Whoa, I know we're all f*cking exhausted
Whoa, am I in my head or have we all lost it?

So I ask myself
"Am I the only one looking for substance?"
Got high, it only left me lonely and loveless
Don't wanna end up in a casket, head full of maggots
Body full of jack shit, I get an abundance
Am I the only one looking for substance?

Am I talking to myself?
Is anyone out there screaming at the walls?
I can't relate at all, relate at all
F*ck the theatrics, what happened to classic?
Give me the real shit, give me the magic

So I ask myself
"Am I the only one looking for substance?"
Got high, it only left me lonely and loveless
(Don't wanna end up in a) Casket
(Head full of) Maggots
(Body full of) Jack shit
(I get an) Abundance
Am I the only one looking for substance?

Yeah, yeah
Yeah, yeah, yeah

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EAT ME

Be more predictable
Be less political
Not too original
Keep to tradition, but stay individual
Dirty but washable
Winning but stoppable
All that I'm hearing is you wanna
Make the impossible possible

Is this what you'd all prefer?
Would you like me better if I was still her?
Did she make your mouths water? Ugh

I know the part I've played before
I know the shit that I've ignored
I know the girl that you adored
She's dead, it's time to f*cking mourn
I can't spoon-feed you anymore
I can't spoon-feed you anymore
Dinner's served, it's on the floor
I can't spoon-feed you anymore
You'll have to eat me as I am
You'll have to eat me as I am

Clean and digestible (clean and digestible)
Less of a spectacle (less of a spectacle)
Oh, and dimensional
Try to be sexy, but don't be too sexual (don't be too sexual)
Please be presentable (please be presentable)
Bit more accessible (bit more accessible)
Get up on your pedestal
Everyone's watching, so don't be forgettable

Longer hair and tighter clothes
Would you like me better if I didn't oppose?
Silver platters, pretty bows, f*ck

I know the part I've played before
I know the shit that I've ignored
I know the girl that you adored
She's dead, it's time to f*cking mourn
I can't spoon-feed you anymore
I can't spoon-feed you anymore
Dinner's served, it's on the floor
I can't spoon-feed you anymore
You'll have to eat me as I am
You'll have to eat me as I am

Choke on it
Choke on it

I know the part I've played before
I know the shit that I've ignored
I know the girl that you adored
She's dead, it's time to f*cking mourn
I can't spoon-feed you anymore
I can't spoon-feed you anymore
Dinner's served, it's on the floor
I can't spoon-feed you anymore
You'll have to eat me as I am
You'll have to eat me as I am

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HOLY FVCK

Like a serpent in the garden
I am truth and I am darkness
I'm an angel, I'm a demon
Just depends on what you're feeling
I'm the fruit that was forbidden
But don't keep my evil hidden
I'm the one she was afraid of
Now I'm what your dreams are made of

I'll show you the light with all the lights off
With all the lights off
I'll bring you to life, I'm a holy f*ck
I'm a holy f*ck (f*ck)

You see me begging for permission
Let me free you from a prison
She's a novice, a beginner
I'm the sexorcist, the sinner
I can guide you, I can teach you
Honey, this is just a preview
'Cause my body's the communion
Take a bite of what I'm doing

I'll show you the light with all the lights off
With all the lights off
I'll bring you to life, I'm a holy f*ck
I'm a holy f*ck (f*ck)

F*ck

I'll show you the light with all the lights off
With all the lights off
I'll bring you to life, I'm a holy f*ck
I'm a holy f*ck (f*ck)

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29

Petal on the vine, too young to drink wine
Just five years of bleeders
Student and a teacher
Far from innocent, what the f*ck's consent?
Numbers told you not to
But that didn't stop you

Finally twenty-nine
Funny, just like you were at the time
Thought it was a teenage dream
Just a fantasy
But was it yours or was it mine?
Seventeen, twenty-nine
Oh, oh, oh, oh, oh
Seventeen, twenty-nine

Had me in your grip
Went beautifully with all my daddy issues
And the shit continues
I see you're quite the collector
Yeah, you're twelve years her elder
Maybe now it doesn't matter
But I know f*cking better
Now I know f*cking better 'cause I'm

Finally twenty-nine
Funny, just like you were at the time
Thought it was a teenage dream
Just a fantasy
But was it yours or was it mine?
Seventeen, twenty-nine
Oh, oh, oh, oh, oh
Seventeen, twenty-nine
Oh, oh, oh, oh, oh
Seventeen, twenty-nine

Finally twenty-nine
Seventeen would never cross my mind
Thought it was a teenage dream, a fantasy
But it was yours, it wasn't mine
Seventeen, twenty-nine
Oh, oh, oh, oh, oh

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HAPPY ENDING

I met god
Just for a minute
Sat in his house
Took a look around
And saw I didn't fit in

I tried love (I tried love)
Gave me something to believe in (gave me something to believe in)
Planning futures from the start, giving pieces of my heart
Just to end up leaving (just to end up leaving)

Am I gonna die trying to find my happy ending?
And will I ever know what it's like to be fine without pretending
That my skin isn't crawling
My demons aren't calling and tearing me to shreds?
Am I gonna die trying to find my happy ending?

I got high (I got high)
You name it, I've tried it (you name it, I've tried it)
Sure, I'm sober now and everybody's proud
But I miss my vices (vices)

And I tried to be your hero (and I tried to be your hero)
I lent you my voice (I lent you my voice)
I was your poster child, it was working for a while
But it didn't fill the void

Am I gonna die trying to find my happy ending?
And will I ever know what it's like to be fine without pretending
That my skin isn't crawling
My demons aren't calling and tearing me to shreds?
Am I gonna die trying to find my happy, find my happy ending?

(Whoa, whoa, whoa)
Find my happy ending
(Whoa, whoa, whoa)

Trying to find my happy ending

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HEAVEN

I had a secret, it killed me to keep it
Someone's to blame but you can't blame Jesus
Hey, hey

Singing hymns all alone in my basement
So close I could almost taste it
Hey, hey

Cut it off, cut it off
Cut it off, cut it off

Crucified for the life I'm living
Oh my God, hope I'm forgiven
Going to hell 'cause it feels like heaven
Speaking in tongues to release my demons
I can't help it, guess I'm a heathen
Going to hell 'cause it feels like heaven

If pleasure's wrong, cast me out like a sinner
I found myself with my two little fingers
Hey, hey

My right hands got me singing my praises
Holy water and my spirit awakens
Hey, hey

Cut it off, cut it off
Cut it off, cut it off

Crucified for the life I'm living
Oh my god, hope I'm forgiven
Going to hell 'cause it feels like heaven (yeah)
Speaking in tongues to release my demons
I can't help it, guess I'm a heathen
Going to hell 'cause it feels like heaven

Like heaven
Speaking in tongues to release my demons
I can't help it, guess I'm a heathen
Going to hell 'cause it feels like heaven, yeah

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CITY OF ANGELS

I've been here for fifteen years
I'm bored to tears, there's nothing left to do
This town is heaven sent but better when
I'm face down under you

Before they go and write my eulogy
Come make this place new to me by

Christening the city of angels (angels)
Show it to me from every angle (angle)
I wanna see Beverly on my knees
I want you to make me scream at the Roxy
Christening the city of angels
City of angels
The city of angels

Splash Mountain from your hands at Disneyland
You know I skip the lines
I'm going down on you at the Viper Room
At Saddle Ranch I'll ride

You call me they but I'm still daddy's girl
Come make my day and rock my world by

Christening the city of angels (angels)
Show it to me from every angle (angle)
I wanna see Beverly on my knees
I want you to make me scream at the Roxy
Christening the city of angels
City of angels
The city of angels

Got me screaming ayo (ayo) on Rodeo (deo)
Got me screaming ayo (ayo) on Rodeo (deo)

Christening the city of angels (angels)
Show it to me from every angle (angle)
I wanna see Beverly on my knees
I want you to make me scream at the Roxy
Christening the city of angels
City of angels
The city of angels, city of angels

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BONES

The second you walked in the room
My leg started to shake
Blood racing, heart pounding
Like there's a f*cking earthquake
One look at me and I lost myself in those blue eyes
And I couldn't close mine no matter how hard that I tried

So many feelings when you said her name
'Cause I want you so bad that I need restraints

Lemme jump your bones
Start to lose control
Taking off your clothes
No one has to know
Lemme, lemme, lemme, lemme jump your bones (bones)

Selfishly speaking, I want all of you to myself
And one day I'm gonna leave you needing nobody else

So many feelings when you said my name
'Cause I want you so bad that I need restraints

Lemme jump your bones
Start to lose control
Taking off your clothes
No one has to know (no one has to know)
Lemme, lemme, lemme, lemme jump your bones (bones)
Lemme, lemme, lemme, lemme jump your bones (jump your bones, yeah)
Lemme, lemme, lemme, lemme jump your bones

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WASTED

Like a light weight, like a cheap date
Like a teenage kinda first taste
I'm scared of the come down
I don't think I'll know how
To live without this now

Will my heart stop? Will I withdrawal?
Can I detox if the shoe drops?
I'm wiser and older
I'm clean and I'm sober
So I can't figure out

How I'm wasted (wasted, wasted)
I'm faded (faded, faded)
The highest high can't hold a candle to
Getting wasted on you

Happened so fast, I can't hold back
I'm addicted, we both know that
It feels like it's dangerous and I wanna chase it
'Cause just one look at you

And I'm wasted (wasted, wasted)
I'm faded (faded, faded)
The highest high can't hold a candle to
Getting wasted on you

Ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh

I'm wasted (wasted, wasted)
I'm faded (faded, faded)
The highest high can't hold a candle to
Getting wasted on you

Wasted, I'm faded
The highest high can't hold a candle to
Getting wasted on you

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COME TOGETHER

You lead, I follow
You breathe, I feel it in my bones
The world's suspended
We fall faster than a stone

I knew the minute I met you
That I had to have you or I'd die
Hold back, I had to hold back
No way to hold me back tonight
Don't rush, I love a slow touch
And you're doin' everything just right
Hold back, you gotta hold back
You gotta hold back till it's time

Got me closer to the edge than ever
We both want it but we don't surrender
And we could make it last forever
But paradise is even better when we come together

We dance in darkness
Your hands send shivers down my spine

I knew the minute I met you
That I had to have you or I'd die
Hold back, I had to hold back
No way to hold me back tonight
Don't rush, I love a slow touch
And you're doin' everything just right
Hold back, you gotta hold back
You gotta hold back till it's time

Got me closer to the edge than ever
We both want it but we don't surrender
And we could make it last forever
But paradise is even better when we come together
Come together

Feels like the first time
Every night with you
Heaven is real life
There's nothing I'd rather do
Ooh, together

Got me closer to the edge than ever
We both want it but we don't surrender
And we could make it last forever
But paradise is even better when we come

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DEAD FRIENDS

I'm breathing in and out
They don't, they don't
I watch the sun go down
They won't, they won't
I'm waking up right now
And they never will again
I still can't understand

I danced with the devil, I made it through hell
And I don't know why
How am I different? I did and they didn't
And it doesn't feel right

I miss the hell we can't raise
I miss the time we can't waste
I miss the texts they can't send
I miss my dead friends
We had the rest of our lives
Didn't get to say goodbye
God only knows where they went
I miss my dead friends

I spot the satellites
Like we used to do
Blow smoke rings to the sky
Like they'll fly to you
Sometimes I wish that I
Could jump right into the blue
For a moment with you

I danced with the devil, I made it through hell
And I don't know why
How am I different? I did and they didn't
And it doesn't feel right

I miss the hell we can't raise
I miss the time we can't waste
I miss the texts they can't send
I miss my dead friends
We had the rest of our lives
Didn't get to say goodbye
God only knows where they went
I miss my dead friends

I miss my dead friends
I miss my dead friends
I'll see them again
I miss my dead friends

I miss the hell we can't raise
I miss the time we can't waste
I miss the texts they can't send
I miss my dead friends
We had the rest of our lives
Didn't get to say goodbye
God only knows where they went
I miss my dead friends

I miss my dead friends
I miss my dead friends
I'll see them again
I miss my dead friends

I miss my dead friends
I miss my dead friends
I'll see them again
I miss my dead friends

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HELP ME

Nothing hanging over
Not biting the bait (biting the bait)
What you think matters
Isn't up for debate

Stroking on your ego oh, oh
Stroking on your ego oh, oh

You say suck it up
There's nothing I can do but throw the two birdies up
There's nothing I can do when I'm really feeling depressed
And you know when you're this low there's really no benefit

Won't plead for you to hear me out
Help me you wanna help me, huh?
I must be feeling better now
Help me, you think you're helping, huh?

Hey, thank you for your useless information
Hey, you're never satisfied with my explanation
Hey, what's with your desperate fascination?
Hey, thank you for your useless information

I'm gonna take your opinions
Shove 'em back in your face (back in your face)
Always some kind of expert
On how to behave

Stroking on your ego oh, oh
Stroking on your ego oh, oh

You say suck it up
There's nothing I can do but throw the two birdies up
There's nothing I can do when I'm really feeling depressed
And you know when you're this low there's really no benefit

Won't plead for you to hear me out
Help me you wanna help me, huh?
I must be feeling better now
Help me, you think you're helping, huh?

Hey, thank you for your useless information
Hey, you're never satisfied with my explanation
Hey, what's with your desperate fascination?
Hey, thank you for your useless information

Won't plead for you to hear me out
Help me you wanna help me, huh?
I must be feeling better now
Never helping, huh?

Hey, thank you for your useless information
Hey, you're never satisfied with my explanation
Hey, what's with your desperate fascination?
Hey, thank you for your useless information

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FEED

Went to the mountain, drank all the wine
Walked through the valley, felt every high
I ran through fire, I did my time
I found my soul just to lose my mind

Met with the healers, prayed with the saints
All of the sinners know my name
There's scars I've caused and scars I've earned
Still don't know much but here's what I learned

My demons are on the hunt
But my angels taught me how to run
I got two wolves inside of me
But I decide which one to feed

Some days are diamonds, some days are rough
Some days I'm tired, some days I'm tough
I've built a bridge and burned it down
I found my wings just to lose my ground

One wolf howls while the other one sings
One wolf soothes while the other one stings
I hold on tight to things I've learned
But the wrong looks right when the tide has turned

My demons are on the hunt
But my angels taught me how to run
I got two wolves inside of me
But I decide which one to feed

One wolf howls while the other one sings
One wolf soothes, while the other one stings (yeah)

My demons are on the hunt
But my angels taught me how to run
I got two wolves inside of me (yeah)
But I decide which one to feed (yeah)
I decide which one to feed

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4 EVER 4 ME

Walls came down, where did they go?
I didn't notice
When they fell, I fell for you
Smitten and hopelessly

Lost in this feeling
Maybe I'm healing
Couldn't be scared if I tried
'Cause nothing's ever felt this right

I can't hold back, I'm falling in love
It's been right on the tip of my tongue
So here I go speaking honestly
I think this is forever for me

When we're alone time floats away
We stare at each other
Take me home I can't wait to hug
And thank your mother

Here's what I'd say
"He's beautifully made"
I can't wait to show you you'll see
I promise his heart's safe with me

I can't hold back, I'm falling in love
It's been right on the tip of my tongue
So here I go speaking honestly
I think this is forever for me

They say you know when you find the one
Just a look from you I come undone
So here I go speaking honestly
I think this is forever for me

I can't hold back, I've fallen in love
It's been right on the tip of my tongue
So here I go speaking honestly
I think this is forever for me

They say you know when you find the one
Just a look from you I come undone
So here I go speaking honestly (here I go)
So here I go speaking honestly
I think this is forever for me
(I think this is forever for me)