Dark Skies - Cutting Lyrics

Yo I'm cutting my self so I can feel something
But I'm numb to the pain yeah I don't feel nothing
Yeah
My scars do not define me
But they ain't fading so it's fine
Not covering them up or hiding them
Not gonna be ashamed of the mistakes I've made
Recovery is a long road
And I feel like I'm traveling it alone
F*ck this worlds so cold
NF was right to tell us to grab our coats
I'm just tryna hold on
Tryna find some hope
And stay away from that rope
Just tryna cope
Maybe I don't have what it takes
To make this a career
Yeah that's my fear
But I'm shifting to a new gear
Giving it all that I got
Coming up with new plots
Putting strain on my brain
But I'm not trying to claim fame
Yeah f*ck it maybe I'm insane

Having trouble staying on my feet
Having trouble staying on this beat
Causing trouble cuz I'm such a freak
But I haven't even hit my peak
Look at me I'm on a streak
Maybe I won't taste defeat

I wanna die
But I don't wanna die
I don't know what is going on inside my mind
Depression making me feel like another person
Tryna hide behind the curtain
Between this anxiety
And these demons in me
I stand no chance you see
I was doomed from the start
Like I got hit with a poison dart
Depression creeping in whenever I get happy
This shit is f*cking whacky

Yo I'm cutting my self so I can feel something
But I'm numb to the pain yeah I don't feel nothing
Yeah I don't feel nothing

She says I got what it takes
I say I ain't gonna make it
But I done faking
I wish I could just disappear
Right in front of this mirror here
Let me just make this clear
I'm not doing this for me

I feel like a deer in headlights
Would someone Turn on the nightlight
I'm done with this fight
Jump onto a new flight
Going to a new sight
Trying to get this right
I think I might

I'm so tired of this game
There is nothing left to gain
So ima use this blade
And focus on the pain
It causes a chain
reaction
As I start to gain
Traction
Until something comes crashing
Down
My whole world flips around
I feel like I'm falling from a cloud
All the way to the ground
I wonder when I hit will I make a sound
Will, there be a crowd
Surrounding my body
There is nobody right now
I'm all alone
Sometimes I feel like a clone

Yo I'm cutting my self so I can feel something
But I'm numb to the pain yeah I don't feel nothing
Yeah I don't feel nothing
Yeah
I don't feel nothing
F*ck