Dysthymia Video (MV)

Have you ever felt so alone
You just wanted to go die
But when you finna get that blade
You thinking of reasons why
Of reasons why you should try
Of reasons to stay alive
Nobody should ever feel this deep of pain u feel inside
You've been struggling to survive
To fight this pain in ya mind
Thinking of reasons why everything should be good in Time
But Ya can't seem to wrap my mind
This feeling won't subside
And deep inside you cry yourself to sleep every night
You wonder why the f*ck you can't seem to get over this
You wonder why you're feeling all this hopelessness
That why you try to help people feel better about themselves
Because you too know how it feels to go and doubt yourself
Don't wanna sweet talk, She wonders why I, I don't trust nobody, not even her
Its been a long time coming
Im tryna let go
All this pain in my heart
To much pride to let it show
People saying that they love me
But how i really know
When the going gets hard
I just run and hit the road
I know its kinda coward
But thats the sad truth
Thought you had my f*ckin back
But i cant get a boost
Heavy pain on my shoulders
With some strain on my back
All this pain in my heart from being stabbed in the back
I stand all alone kuz trust is what i lack
Everytime i said "I Love You"
But i never heard it back
They say love is hard to find but i dont know where its at
Im sleeping all day to escape from the pain
Even on a sunny day
All i see is f*ckin rain
I hold my head to the sky
And pray to the lord
That someday i find peace and the key to the door