Running away from everything I fear
And I wonder how I ended up here
I don't deserve pity, and I don't deserve you
I've left myself down in the dark
With a tendency or curse of breaking hearts
I've tried my best but it's no better than my worst
What kind of man do you think that I am?
How do I make you feel when I'm around
Do you drown?
Or do you hold onto the higher ground that I can't seem to find
What do you do when you catch yourself living a lie
I've found myself pretending everything is fine
To give in and give up, or to adjust and suit
Believe me, that is the question, the absolute
Bury me
Carry me
But I don't want to have your sympathy
My misery will forever make me hold the knife so close, but I will never push
Because that's when it will make it all real
I've let myself down again
What do you do when you catch yourself living a lie
I've found myself pretending everything is fine
To give in and give up, or to adjust and suit
Believe me, that is the question, the absolute
I never thought I would end up here
I was so hard on myself but I was always clear
It feels like years since I have felt content
What does that make me?
What does that make me?
Lay me down