Self-Medicated Video (MV)

Waking up on the floor
I need more
Don't remember who I am or where I've been
I just need a little more substance
(Grotesque)
I just want to find the perfect moment
Relapse into my mind's resistance
Tell myself that this is the last time
But I know deep down it's killing me
Pretend that the consequences aren't mine
But it still f*cking hurts
(Blegh)
I'm drowning and I can't breathe
I did it to myself
I don't need any help
I'm self-medicated
I wish that I didn't know
What it all could have been
I don't need any help
I'm self-medicated
Self-help coursing through my veins
Have I gone insane
Last bit of self-reflection gone down the drain
I can't let go of this
Self-hatred's so ingrained
I'm looking in the mirror
For what feels like the last time
The gun in my drawer looks more welcoming
Every time I have a lapse in judgment
I rip my mind in half
I'm drowning and I can't breathe
I did it to myself
I don't need any help
I'm self-medicated
I wish that I didn't know
What it all could have been
I don't need any help
I'm self-medicated
I'm drowning and I can't breathe
I did it to myself
I don't need any help
I'm self-medicated
I wish that I didn't know
What it all could have been
I don't need any help
I'm self-medicated
Move!
I'm self-medicated
Oh
I cut myself at the seams
I did it to myself
Maybe I need some help
I'm self-medicated
I wish that you didn't know
What I could have been
I think I need some help
I'm self-medicated
I'm drowning and I can't breathe
I did it to myself
I don't need any help
I'm self-medicated
I wish that I didn't know
What it all could have been
I don't need any help
I'm self-medicated