Deadwood - Kidlife Crisis Lyrics

I'm tryna love but my heart got them googly eyes
Shaken by people's perceptions it's hard to know
Which thoughts are mine-screamin' in pillows I wanna forget You
Cuz lately you don't seem to value my time but I'm so hypocritical
When i'm alone it's not you that I fight
Don't wanna write when I'm not feeling right...

Too tired to even indulge in my vices
I lie awake in this kidlife Crysis

No nanosuit and invisible too Covid that's not what I meant by go undercover

Thinkin bout quarantine coitus when my heart i'm mostly avoidant
Usin' this time to get right cuz them internal battles assorted

Don't put me away, my heart's a bouquet

Why live life, if i'm not cultivating memories
Why think twice, if I can't find out who I'm meant to be
Why find light, when in the darkness I feel energy
Maybe cuz my soul's aligned with something probably hurting me

Wouldn't know, the world around me's too depressed to see
All the numbness, that we feel towards our tragedy
What is this pain because I know it's not reality
But what would I know, if I was trapped in my anatomy

My soul is old, and I'm just tryna make analogies
If hell is hot, why are we warmin up to fallacies
Grew up on prescriptions but we never had no allergies
I did not agree to life working for a damn salary
I'm done with this shit, gonna work towards what I wanna see cuz
Ain't no way a nigga tellin me what ought to be...

Aint no way a nigga tellin me what ought to be!

So do you wanna be alone, together
I be feelin under heavy, weather
I'm not stressin no i'll feel real better
Do you wanna be alone, together
Do you wanna be alone, together
Do you wanna be alone, together
Do you wanna be alone, together
Do you wanna be alone, together?

I'm tryna love but my heart got them googly eyes
Shaken by people's perceptions it's hard to know which thoughts are mine-screamin'
In pillows I wanna forget You cuz lately you don't seem to value my time
But I'm so hypocritical when i'm alone it's not you that I fight
Don't wanna write when I'm not feeling right...

Too tired to even indulge in my vices
I lie awake in this kidlife crisis