Deception (NOR) - grey Lyrics

I seen that the sky turned grey, was hoping that you hit my phone
I was going through some pain, i didn't wanna go alone
Need my ray of sunshine, so please bring me to a common hope
And when the sky goes dim, i will be praying that i have you close
Let me know if
I'm really the person that you wanna conceive a kid with
Could have killed myself last night in my kitchen
I ain't really wanna do it cause i know that you'd miss me
I'm a flawed ass nigga, take a lot of shit to the heart, go figure
I mean well, and i love hard, I'm different
See a lot of stars in the sky, i'm wishing
To have a brighter vision
Nine times out of ten
I would tell them i was happy, but i really lied
I'm really good at keeping sadness inside a disguise
But even i could see the bullshit inside of my eyes
I wanted suicide
But i don't talk about it
Niggas always make me feel like it's better in silence
Fight my demons, and i come out with even more talent
Making music is the only way i find a balance
So you don't see me wilding
So you don't see me tripping
So you don't see me tight
Cause if i get there, i'ma feel the need to start a fight
With all the wrong people
Who tried to do me right
Who saw my darkness and tried to keep me inside the light
I guess that's my fault
I see the bad shit, and become a pacifist
I let it happen, but i know i didn't ask for this
Kill my demons, i'm a motherf*cking masochist, okay
I seen that the sky turned grey, was hoping that you hit my phone
I was going through some pain, i didn't wanna go alone
Need my ray of sunshine, so please bring me to a common hope
And when the sky goes dim, i will be praying that i have you close
Let me know if
I'm really the person that you wanna confess your sins to
Wanna be the nigga you let in your mental
Yeah, i wanna be the one you let in your temple
You got your days, and yes, i go through mine
I struggle, and yes, i'm stuck inside my mind
People stay happy while i'm left behind
I see through my evil, can't act like i'm blind
Listening to Kendrick on a daily basis, to be sure i stayed sane
ADHD came on, put the window up
Sky was grey, so you know i had to maintain
But i'm deep in my head
All these voices tryna tell me that i need to be dead
Another voice is tryna tell me that i need to eat lead
Couple voices tryna tell me i should swallow the pills
Another voice is tryna say i need a glorious death
Step in pain with these Kyle Walkers
I'm a vivid thinker, ain't a heavy talker
I don't feel a need to comment on it
I'ma keep my distance, and i'll stay the watcher
Walk a lonely road just to find myself, solitude is a shocker
Through it all, i still keep my head down, and keep my hands in my pockets, yeah
I seen that the sky turned grey, was hoping that you hit my phone
I was going through some pain, i didn't wanna go alone
Need my ray of sunshine, so please bring me to a common hope
And when the sky goes dim, i will be praying that i have you close
When the sky turns grey
When the sky turns grey