Decks - Clouded (feat. Evan Carus) Lyrics

I just wanna escape this place
Just wanna find somebody that I can embrace
My life is moving too fast I can't keep up with the pace
Don't wanna think about my past wish I could hit erase
I been tryna keep my head up but they keep pushing me down
They throw me in the water then watch me drown
They think that they all kings, but I don't see no crown
I say these stupid things, then I'm feeling like a clown

I would give you everything if only you would give it back
You been running through my brain it's like my thoughts are a track
Feels like I cannot be myself I'm always putting on an act
Never saying how I feel because I'm scared how they'll react
Love is an elusive thing
It's hard to obtain
Even harder to explain
So much loss but no gain
It can cause so much pain
All these thoughts in my brain
It can make a sunny day suddenly feel like rain
Saw my future when I looked in your eyes
Always knew my emotions would be my demise
Swear to god you as hot as July's
Weather
But whether or not I decide
To shoot my shot hoping that you will reply
I rely on this music for giving me sanity
Just hope all this doesn't cause a calamity
Just a few words and I ruin my family

You always say I'm to blame but you be f*ckin with lames
And I been doin all this rappin just so I can be sane
And I been hangin with the boys they tell me that I'm insane
And not just talkin about a girl we talkin bout all the flames
Now I've been losin all feeling so I'm askin my brain
Why the hell I shoot my shot if I don't know how to aim
Maybe now you're telling people that all guys are the same
But I got plenty conversations that'll counter your claim

Thought I found the one but had to go a hundred eighty
Cuz the one I thought would save me was a detrimental lady
She's the one that said maybe but the one that would say yes
Was right here all along and I never would have guessed
Now I'm feeling better and I can't even express
How much she means to me man I feel blessed
Everything is changing and I think it's for the better
Only time will tell if I will make it through the shitty weather

Call out what you exclaim but I will not be trapped by fame
You think I play your games but my heart's falling down the drain
I pray I lose my soul before I lose us as a whole
Maybe the cards will fold and I will have to let you go