Deshon - Not Yo Regular Artist Lyrics

We sing confessions in darkness
I'm not yo regular artist
I'm tryna love but I'm heartless
You know that shit be the hardest
Feel like the burden falls on you cause you
Done made it the farthest
Think I did it for myself but I don't think I'm the smartest

Wonder if I lose it all who I'm gon' call on
Back against the wall tell me who I'm supposed to fall on
Took my talents to the cello I had went and got my ball on
Turn my talents to the class once I seen that f*cking ball gone

Hard work was the recipe f*ck who thinking less of me
My sister died and went to heaven Dakota what she left for me
A Phi A for life man i promise niggas can't step with me
Even wearing Nike mane I promise they can't check for me

Destined from the start cause I knew that I had bigger dreams
Knew I had to get it named the captain of the winning team
A Mac on my posts used to hit me say boy you clean
When I get distant in my feelings you know what it mean

Ayy what he supposed to do? He fear no man he only god fearing
Why he talk on beats nobody here but only God hear it
Every time I touch the whip I wish he would've let Mashaud live
Every time I touch the stove I think about being in my sista crib

Ayy wish I could've turned the stove off
You see my pain when I take my clothes off
Yeah inhale this gas burn your nose off
Yeah I keep sippin' till I doze off

I know God made me different
Talking to my therapist I be asking ha if I'm trippin
You know my name up out the bible Feel like I read like every scripture
You no longer in my life that's why I'm cropping every picture

Spend every holiday alone I'd rather distance myself
Yeah they told me go to therapy I thank God for that
I know my papa would be proud I should be proud of myself
Somehow I still can't go to sleep unless my glock on the left