Devin Vegas - Feelins Lyrics

I really
Dont know how to deal with my feelings
On pills sitting stare at the ceiling
Swear nothing near mes appealing
I put it on my family im failing
You feel me?
Say it be alright if it will be
If you never liked me than kill me
Cuttin with the knife still thrills me
Its silly
But i dont wanna deal with these feelings
Everytime i try to get away
I get pulled back by another day
And day after day its smothering
I dont know how much more i can take
Heart is aching contempting taking lives
Hard to face it plain and basic sick of waitin wasting time
Pictures perfect printed but im gifted so im painting mine
Problems keep on piling but theyre blinded to the naked eye
All i ever wanted was somebody to love
And spend the rest of my life with but i guess i aint enough
Slipping into quicksand sipping liqour, mud when he stuck
All the shit i did for bitches maybe its not enough and its f*cked
Instruments are bliss you play the piccolo to me
Only kissed me under moonlight thats mistletoe u need
Hoes be heartless and ur horrible aint difficult to see
So i hope that you end up as f*cking miserable as me
Yah
Aint far from relapsing
Again with depression its hard to be happy
Awful intentions not sorry for snapping
Remorse or regards for ya boy when i stab em
Cuz f*ck it ive had it
Bitch how did this happen
Was brought up to thought there was power in passion
Im baffled
Sadly sarcastic when asking bout how i been acting
I really
Dont know how to deal with my feelings
On pills sitting stare at the ceiling
Swear nothing near mes appealing
I put it on my family im failing
You feel me?
Say it be alright if it will be
If you never liked me than kill me
Cuttin with the knife still thrills me
Its silly
But i dont wanna deal with these feelings