Pray for Me Video (MV)

You know, they say theres always a brighter day
But what about when its too hard to fight the pain?
And the only choices you find have the same outcome but
Ones to live miserably and the other kills you while your smiling
In the ER cause i ODed
3 bars and codiene
Still chasing an old dream
Smoked out and im so steezed
Im gone; yall know
Guns drawn and my arms fold
Just one more than my heart slows
My lungs numb when im on those
Eyes dialate; words slur
Im fine but it hurts her
And she got a right to be mad at me
Cause a lot of nights i carry these
Not for the sleep im just trying to soar
But not even 3 get me high anymore
Started to see that its harder for me
To complete what i wanted to be
If my heart on my sleeve
Theres a lot on my mind and its bothering me
Shit is as hard as i thought it would be
Gotta swallow my pride? but my water is bleach!
I probably die while i slaughter the beat uh
Lot on my chest swear to god im a mess
To be honest im stressed
When we livin this life all thats promised is death
Damn
Heard pain good cause it mean u alive
But why would i live when im breathing to die?
Shit is so hard when you live in your thoughts
And you trip and you fall when you give it your all
Cause all that you do seems to broaden your struggle
Im caught in a bubble
I started to plummet
My heart in my stomach
The farther im running away
I become what i hate
And im f*cking ashamed
Feelin like drake cause aint nothings the same
All of this stupid shit leaving me scarred
Im so deep in the dark
And im starved cause im sleeping it off
I aint eating at all
Reachin for mars but im weak in my arms
All i fear is my thoughts
Talk to the stars but aint hearing from god
So don't tell me what I don't believe
I don't believe you're focusing
Cause yall dont see im broken b
And yall are difficult to please
Thats why i do it just for me
Crazy how these people change
Wish that i could freeze the frames
Have it all just be the same
Am i wrong asking for long lasting relationships
And my songs blasting so moms happy?
Why do i choose the wrong actions
God please if i fall, catch me
I get tattoos to cover scars
Express my views in other songs
Because of blues my brothers gone
Guess this means theres no such thing as destiny
This is what I chose to be
I dont care about my image, you know that if your close to me
Dont act like thats supposed to be what f*ckin matters most to me
I will never show defeat or ever purchase rosaries
But id buy a bitch a wedding ring?
Nah im praying for better things
And you never think youd lose everything
But you bet it stings when that lever swings
And your life switch from that nice shit
To tryna find where that knife is
Wish you aint misused
All your powers and its true
All your problems and issues
Are a product of this dude
Then it hits you that it is you
Youre the source of all your pain
I feel like im falling mane
I hug tight with great might
Cuz my love life made me hate life and this aint right
Uzi to my brain and i just wanna let it go
But someone keeps on telling me i got somethang to show
Told my friends and all my fam ill find a way to cope
Cause i hate that i be taking half the shit i said i wont
Look at all the shit that i done been thru and im still here
I mean, i may have brought most of my struggles on myself but theres no reason why i should still struggle
I try man
But every choice i make seems to have a worse outcome than anything prior that i chose
I just wanna do the right thing and get my life back to normal
Im tired of doing this, tired of living upset tired of doing this
I cant even make any song sound right it takes me a million tries
Unless im high and i cant comprehend it