dezertedplane - Mirage in the Mirror Lyrics

Why do I feel like this
You may not realize what many people go
Through day through day
Trying so hard to eat one thing

Insecurities that started so young, they never left
I always hated feeling parted
My life wasn't worth it anymore
Invisible strings came to be

I can't help but see
They have a grasp of me
I just wanna be let go of this never ending nightmare
It's clever, people can't see

That it's devouring me
I try to eat at least one thing
My body constantly feels like it's plummeting
Any meals I try to fake

Conceals my outer fate
Being called skinny wasn't a great start
Quite uncalled for judging my outer heart
Trying my hardest to start keeping things down

Invisible strings all around
I can't help but see
Maybe it's something more
Stuff inside your brain that you can't ignore

What's the price you're paying for
Walk with me through my past
I just wanna be able
To eat again

Take a walk with me through my past
Might as well get a laugh
They plant inside of me
Grasping tightly

I could've been eating more
Is what people say
When I'm constantly contemplating
If I wanna risk it coming back up again

It stacks and stacks up
Soon I will yak it up
Even though I try so hard not to eat a lot
Was it my fault for thinking this way

Or was it the overthinking in my brain
Cause of my feelings
Isn't it dehumidizing
As much as I would love to eat

My mind thinks differently
Some days I rarely eat
While other days I can't keep anything down
Isn't it dehumidizing

Constantly trying to get the appetite
Just to eat one thing
Judging my outer heart
Trying my hardest to start keeping things down

Invisible strings all around
I can't help but see
Maybe it's something more
Stuff inside your brain

That you can't ignore
What's the price you're paying for
Walk with me through my past
I just wanna be able

To eat again
Take a walk with me through my past
Might as well get a laugh