Don't Shoot the Messenger - Here Without Myself Lyrics

You are not lost
Look up in the light
You will not be Forgotten
Once I noticed who I become
I felt like it was too late
Pushing on through the darkness
I can't seem to shake this urge
A long overwhelming sickness has Plagued my body for a Decade
How much longer? How many Time
When does this subside
No tears form in my eye any Longer
I just let it Fester within

For myself I believe I can make It out
But how can I become the person that I No longer hate
Once I can see it in myself
I'll believe I'll start to change

Pushing back my feelings for Others
Making sure that they know
Pain is only a four letter word but it Carries so much hate
When do I escape my own false Reality
How many more years is it Going to take
From me

I never thought I would get this Far
Feeling as if I was living for Everyone Else, except for me

Breakdown the cloud that Manifest my psyche
Can I push through and make Myself Believe that I'll truly be Happy again
I haven't forgot what happiness Feels like I will go into the edge Trying to find it