The Door Malaise - A Brain Death Lyrics

I feel my mind is splintering into nothing
I did not want this, but see what I've done
I was never one, and just so long to come
I am, in my brain, just an abstract, flickering
My mind is splintering

I was not even a thing, I'm only a place
Emerging from entangled gray
I am written in water
I divide into nothing
The parts are (Darkening) failing this dying space
As the silence is seeping in, I expand into nothing
I'm expanding into nothing - I break - my mind

Something is spilling out of my (Missing) head
Memories fragment, confused delusions, rolling blackouts
Something's not right

My, how absurd death makes life feel alive
Life's relentless beguiling fabrications illuminates so precious little

Tell the children all is lost - we don't know, I'm sorry, tell THEM
["We'll have to rebuild the whole head, Mark" "Really? That bad?"]
[The whole body's going to be unusable when I'm f*ckin' done with it]
All our hubris is impish ignorance - death
You must blaze your own wayward life
Tell the children, we don't know, all is lost, all are lost

Having occurred at least once
I am a logical consequence of existence
Therefore, as long as there is existence
I am possible - as long as there is existence

It's ok, I did not deserve the brief time we had, thank you

In fact, (I won't know that I am gone)
If existence is eternal, my return is inevitable
But I will remember nothing. I'm sorry
Good bye, I've loved this life