Dream Drop - 6 Months Lyrics

6 months in, I feel nothing
Supressed the love I had to give
I can't believe that this is me
I need to flee
So I quit my job to get job done
But still I'm here with nothing won
That 9-5 was killing me
I had to flee

6 months in, I've been drinking too much
But there's something about that sloppy rush
And I can't turn away 'cus I'm so afraid
That the things that I've done means it's way too late
It's been a whole week in bed and I still can't feel
All these Bills in stacks means f*ck this is real
The unbearable shame is what keeps me away, yeah I flee my all my problems like it's a game

6 months in and I'm afraid
I'll never feel a thing again

Oh well
Like nothing
I fell
Again

6 months in, I fall apart
The bottom that I hit real hard
I lost so many parts of me
I have to flee
The music might be all I have
But I just can't get out of bed
This isn't where I thought I'd be
How do I flee?

6 months in, This is total despair
But the aura of failure is stuck in the air
I don't care about the things that I used to love
Oh, All I ever want is to get lost above
Then all the sudden thoughts of suicide
Yeah I admit that I want to die
So life is short? maybe mine is shorter
And It's way too late, 'cus I crossed the border

6 months in and I'm afraid
I'll never feel a thing again

Oh well
Like nothing
I fell
Again

I created a monster
After all, it seems
A second version of me
That I am when I flee
So are all of the parts that I can't set free
All of the parts that I hate to be?
It's been 6months straight of feeling nothing at all
I'm a twisted monster full of scars
A burden to see so I hide and I flee
But most of all, a f*cking burden to be

6 Months in I've been smoking and drinking
To stop myself from this stupid thinking
I'm ugly and scarred and I lost my heart
What makes me me has been torn apart

6 months in and I'm afraid
I'll never feel a thing again

Oh well
Like nothing
I fell
Again

6 months in, i still can't feel
Will this be the end of me?