Dreamlucid - Closed Doors and Sunsets Lyrics

Home alone, home alone, it's the thoughts that I get
Close my doors, close my doors
When the sun sets
I went overseas, to look inside me
Get away from all the things that I see
I can't be at ease, I'm feeling the plea
I'm ready to burn just so I can be free
Free from the anchors that we don't choose
Don't like my pair let me try your shoes
Let me try those too, be like you
Feel your pain and use your name
Walk around until my feelings change
The days going by, I feel ashamed
Am I really worth it? Do I lie away?
Am I really worth it? Do I lie away?
Telling tales, trying boost the sails
Give my all until my psyche fails
Till I fall away till my spine all cracks
Think of all who really have my back
While the pressure mounts, this and that
Like it ain't enough, we ain't talking ounce
We ain't talking pounds, We talking tons
Finger itching I wanna bus my guns
It's getting tough but boy I don't run
I'm looking up and I'm chasing suns
Gotta run the globe so it stays always sunny
Trying to be all heart forget bout the money
How long can I go? I have to take care of mummy
How long can I go? until I turn kind of cunning
How long can I go? I'm really in need of something
I'm really in need of something oh, oh
Home alone, home alone, it's the thoughts that I get
Close my doors, close my doors
When the sun sets
Why do I feel this way? Why do I talk this way?
Why do I get the feeling of hatred for the ones that I love
It got me jotting and pacing
I swing at the walls, and I keep on forsaking
Love that I get
I punish myself, I'm throbbing, I'm aching
Will I regret?
The time that I've wasted, enclosed in myself
In conversation, with the demons at bay
Have to look at the things that I cannot erase
Lower myself, get down in that space
Hello I see you, will please go away?
I need you to hear, I wanna just heal
I want you to know that I will always prevail
I'll go through the Hell, I'll climb out a well
I hope they can tell that my soul ain't for sale
I know bout the odds, most destined fail
Hope my juice never runs out my cells like an old Duracell
I know I'm a double of A's, but that stands for a pocket of Ace
I don't care what you have to say, get off my shoulder you fake
Yapping your mouth, I slap you around, give you some of that taste
Of your own poison, I'm in my own zone, making choices
Looking for omens, looking' for signs
Meditating trying to touch the divine
Powers, cross on my neck but don't look to the sky
Coward, one thing I hope that I ain't after spite
Hours, thousands of them just to see a lil light
Hours, thousands of them just to see a lil light
Straightening up, getting ready for the fight
Coming up now in the belly of the beast
What do you expect when you coming from the east
Thats a part of the world where they never had to eat
Mummy had no love, daddy roaming on the streets
Sins getting done, coming haunting me
Feeling so alone, never knowing what to be
Behind closed eyes stay lost in reverie
Smiling at the thought, tear rolling down my cheek
Mum stress free, created a family, finally
We ain't so alone, there ain't no blood but I call it home
Blood spills blood darkness has its moment
Takes a piece of you, pierces past your clothing
Like a bullet in your chest, stinging and its burning
Leaves a mark for life, gets harder in the mornings
Was it something that you did? Why did you deserve it?
Was it someone you deserted? Was it someone needing love?
Was it done on purpose? Were you trying doing good still hurt the other person?