God, Please Kill Me! Video (MV)

My steps ordered
So kill me and get it over with
Everyone is fake outside
Don't even notice it
Anymore
Love is solitude
So give me space
Then give me more
What's life really for?
Everything I felt before

Can't compare to what I'm feelin now
All my smiles turn around
Guess it ain't no clowns around

Circus out my circle
Still my mind is circulating
I jumped the pavement
And landed where no trust is
Dustan/Dusting
Myself off
They use me
Then take
I chase after
And get lost

Grab the pistol
And ring off
Like where you niggas get off
God kill me
Before I kill somebody

I don't say words
To say things
They do shit
To stay seen
I live alone
Don't need nobody

Think they know me
But it ain't true
All I read is fake news
Can't be alone
I need somebody
Real

Im Out of order
Everything feel new now
Don't know what to do now
Give me a chair
I need some water

Cuz my mind is an ocean
All deep dives
No coasting
Don't want to end up like my father

Talented but lifeless
My genius is my crisis
Greed is the death of a starving artist

Tryna chart my own course
But can't open my own doors
Gotta help myself
Before I help somebody

Don't see the point everyday now
Trying give myself a way out
God kill me
Before I kill somebody

Feel the pain everyday now
Can't even crack a fake smile
Don't look at me
Can't face nobody

Don't even know what's true now
You try to help but it's futile
Leave me alone
Don't need nobody

All I want is you now
But you say we thru now
I love you
But you don't love nobody

Livin life on my own now
Pay the cost to be grown now
God kill me
Before I kill somebody