Eminem - Going Through Changes Lyrics
Eminem Lyrics
Going Through Changes Lyrics
[Chorus: Ozzy Osbourne:]
I'm going through changes
I'm going through changes
[Verse 1:]
Lately I really, feel like I'm rolling for delf like Philly
Feel like I'm losin' control of myself, I sincerely
Apologize if all that I sound like is I'm complainin'
But life keeps on complicatin' and I'm debatin'
On leavin' this world this evenin', even my girls can see I'm grievin'
I try and hide it but I can't
Why do I act like I'm all high and mighty when inside I'm dyin'?
I am finally realizin' I need help, can't do it myself, too weak
Two weeks I've been havin' ups and downs
Goin' through peaks and valleys, dilly dallyin' 'round with the idea of endin' this shit right here
I'm hatin' my reflection, I walk around the house tryin' to fight mirrors
I can't stand what I look like, yeah, I look fat, but what do I care?
I give a f*ck, only thing I fear's Hailie
I'm afraid if I close my eyes that I might see her
Shit...
[Chorus]
[Verse 2:]
I lock myself in the bedroom, bathroom, nappin' at noon
Yeah dad's in a bad mood, he's always snappin' at you
Marshall what happened that you can't stop with these pills
And you fallin' off with yer skills and your own fans are laughin' at you?
It become a problem you're too pussy to tackle, get up
Be a man stand, a real man would have had this shit handled
Know you just had your heart ripped out and crushed
They say Proof just flipped out, homie just swift out and bust
Nah, it ain't like Doody to do that
He wouldn't f*ckin' shoot at, no-body, he'd fight first
But dwellin' on it only makes the night worse
Now I'm poppin' Vic's, Perc's and Methadone pills
''Yeah Em, tight verse, you killed it''
F*ckin' drug dealers hang around me like yes men
And they gon' do whatever I says when I says it
It's in their best interest to protect their investment
And I just lost my f*ckin' best friend, so f*ck it I guess then...
[Chorus]
Don't know what I'm gonna do, but I just keep on goin' through changes
[Verse 3:]
My friends just can't understand this new me, that's understandable
Man, but just think how bananas you'd be, you'd be an animal too
If you were trapped in this fame and caged in it like a zoo
And everybody's lookin' at you, what you want me to do?
I'm startin' to live like a recluse and the truth is
Fame's startin' to give me an excuse, to be at a all time low
I sit alone in my home theatre watchin' the same damn DVD
Of the first tour, the last tour he was still alive
And it hurts so I, fast forward sleepin' pills will make me feel alright
And if I'm still awake in the middle of the night
I'll just take a couple more, yeah you're motherf*ckin' right
I ain't slowin' down for no one, I am almost homeward bound
Almost in a coma, yeah, homie come on, dole 'em out
Daddy, don't you die on me, daddy better hold your ground
F*ck, don't I know the sound of that voice
Yeah baby hold me down
[Chorus]
Don't know what I'm gonna do, but I just keep on goin' through changes
[Verse 4:]
Wake up in the hospital, full of tubes, but somehow I'm pullin' through
Swear when I come back I'm a be bulletproof
I'm a do it just for Proof, I think I should state a few facts
'Cause I may not get a chance again to say the truth
Shit it just hit me that what if I would not have made it through?
I think about the things I would have never got to say to you
I'd never get to make it right, so here's what I came to do
Hailie this one is for you, Whitney and Alaina too
I still love your mother, that'll never change
Think about her every day, we just could never get it together hey
Wish there was a better way for me to say it
But I swear on everythang, I'll do anythang for her on any day
There are just too many thangs to explain, when it rains
Guess it pours, yes it does, wish there wasn't any pain
But I can't pretend there ain't, I ain't placin' any blame
I ain't pointin' fingers, heaven knows I've never been a saint
I know that it just feels like we just pissed away our history
And just today, I looked at your picture, almost if to say
''I miss you'' subconsciously, wish it didn't end this way
But I just had to get away, don't know why
I don't know what else to say, I guess I'm...
[Chorus]
Don't know what I'm gonna do, but I just keep on goin' through changes
I'm going through changes
I'm going through changes
[Verse 1:]
Lately I really, feel like I'm rolling for delf like Philly
Feel like I'm losin' control of myself, I sincerely
Apologize if all that I sound like is I'm complainin'
But life keeps on complicatin' and I'm debatin'
On leavin' this world this evenin', even my girls can see I'm grievin'
I try and hide it but I can't
Why do I act like I'm all high and mighty when inside I'm dyin'?
I am finally realizin' I need help, can't do it myself, too weak
Two weeks I've been havin' ups and downs
Goin' through peaks and valleys, dilly dallyin' 'round with the idea of endin' this shit right here
I'm hatin' my reflection, I walk around the house tryin' to fight mirrors
I can't stand what I look like, yeah, I look fat, but what do I care?
I give a f*ck, only thing I fear's Hailie
I'm afraid if I close my eyes that I might see her
Shit...
[Chorus]
[Verse 2:]
I lock myself in the bedroom, bathroom, nappin' at noon
Yeah dad's in a bad mood, he's always snappin' at you
Marshall what happened that you can't stop with these pills
And you fallin' off with yer skills and your own fans are laughin' at you?
It become a problem you're too pussy to tackle, get up
Be a man stand, a real man would have had this shit handled
Know you just had your heart ripped out and crushed
They say Proof just flipped out, homie just swift out and bust
Nah, it ain't like Doody to do that
He wouldn't f*ckin' shoot at, no-body, he'd fight first
But dwellin' on it only makes the night worse
Now I'm poppin' Vic's, Perc's and Methadone pills
''Yeah Em, tight verse, you killed it''
F*ckin' drug dealers hang around me like yes men
And they gon' do whatever I says when I says it
It's in their best interest to protect their investment
And I just lost my f*ckin' best friend, so f*ck it I guess then...
[Chorus]
Don't know what I'm gonna do, but I just keep on goin' through changes
[Verse 3:]
My friends just can't understand this new me, that's understandable
Man, but just think how bananas you'd be, you'd be an animal too
If you were trapped in this fame and caged in it like a zoo
And everybody's lookin' at you, what you want me to do?
I'm startin' to live like a recluse and the truth is
Fame's startin' to give me an excuse, to be at a all time low
I sit alone in my home theatre watchin' the same damn DVD
Of the first tour, the last tour he was still alive
And it hurts so I, fast forward sleepin' pills will make me feel alright
And if I'm still awake in the middle of the night
I'll just take a couple more, yeah you're motherf*ckin' right
I ain't slowin' down for no one, I am almost homeward bound
Almost in a coma, yeah, homie come on, dole 'em out
Daddy, don't you die on me, daddy better hold your ground
F*ck, don't I know the sound of that voice
Yeah baby hold me down
[Chorus]
Don't know what I'm gonna do, but I just keep on goin' through changes
[Verse 4:]
Wake up in the hospital, full of tubes, but somehow I'm pullin' through
Swear when I come back I'm a be bulletproof
I'm a do it just for Proof, I think I should state a few facts
'Cause I may not get a chance again to say the truth
Shit it just hit me that what if I would not have made it through?
I think about the things I would have never got to say to you
I'd never get to make it right, so here's what I came to do
Hailie this one is for you, Whitney and Alaina too
I still love your mother, that'll never change
Think about her every day, we just could never get it together hey
Wish there was a better way for me to say it
But I swear on everythang, I'll do anythang for her on any day
There are just too many thangs to explain, when it rains
Guess it pours, yes it does, wish there wasn't any pain
But I can't pretend there ain't, I ain't placin' any blame
I ain't pointin' fingers, heaven knows I've never been a saint
I know that it just feels like we just pissed away our history
And just today, I looked at your picture, almost if to say
''I miss you'' subconsciously, wish it didn't end this way
But I just had to get away, don't know why
I don't know what else to say, I guess I'm...
[Chorus]
Don't know what I'm gonna do, but I just keep on goin' through changes
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