EastDear Park - Resurfaced Lyrics

I did my best to count my blessings today
But I found fewer than I recall
I did my best to leave my bed today
But I found it harder than I recall

It's a lonely kind of rut I frequently find myself in
Caught in the middle
Looking for a way to breathe deep
If the signs have taught me nothing
It'd come less shocking than I'd like to admit to myself

It's never ending
It's never ending

All these things have resurfaced
More quickly than I would have thought
They're coming back to torture me
My undertow's out of control
(All these things have resurfaced)
They're coming back to torture me

Silence drowns the screaming
Bleeding out at night
In the shape of conversation
Dragging what we left behind
Dream it away
Escape, escape

At war with where I still am, impassing
I'm walking beside myself in passing
But I'd rather fall back down than crawl

I did my best to count my blessings today
But I found fewer than I recall
I did my best to leave my bed today
But I found it harder than I recall

It's never ending
Dream it all away
Constant descending
Dream it all away

Silence drowns the screaming
Bleeding out at night
In the shape of conversation
Dragging what we left behind