Egg Cream - Do My Best Lyrics

Used to text you speeding down the highway
Now I don't text you at all
But still when my phone vibrates
I'm hoping it's your call

But no, of course it's not
And it will never be
Oh so you haven't heard?
My brands catastrophe

And when that feeling hits
I want to collapse to the ground
Sometimes for just a moment
Other times it sticks around
Close my eyes and try not to
Gouge them out
It can be unbearable

Makes me want to scream at night
Disconnect from the wifi
Run away start a new life

I will do my best
To forget sinking feelings in my chest
I will do my best
To forget these past regrets

Some days when I wake up
I don't wanna leave my bed
Feel that I'm not good enough
I'd be better off dead

I dodge calls so I can't
Disappoint you anymore
Love doing the f*ck up dance
All the way to the sea floor

And when I'm down there
I recall the look in all your eyes
The disappointment in them
As crustaceans swim on by
I feel so peaceful now
Oh wait I'm gunna drown

As my lungs fill with water
Think of mine and friends laughter
Float on up and feel better

I will do my best
To forget sinking feelings in my chest
I will do my best
To forget these past regrets

I wanna be
Shining brightly
I wanna do
Whatever I want to