EgLe - Vulnerable Lyrics

They say don't tell people
About the pain you've been through
They'll only use it against you
They'll act like that's what you deserve

There's no happy ending
There's just pretending

I don't share my problems anymore
No I don't really wanna get personal
Over the years I have built up a wall
My scars are still healing
I can't be vulnerable

Heart on my sleeve
Did a lot of damage to me
Why would I share anything?
Why would I share my past or my grief
It's kinda pointless unless I'm profiting
It's not like it gives me anymore relief
People do judge me for it

That's just how it is

There's no happy ending
There's just pretending

I don't share my problems anymore
No I don't really wanna get personal
Over the years I have built up a wall
My scars are still healing
I can't be vulnerable

Rather not be seen or understood
Rather cry about doing what I know I should
Rather not feel a single emotion
Or think a single thought
Rather be blind or numb
Rather be rejected or forgotten
Rather take myself out of the game
And warm that bench
Rather pretend
I'm not hurt
While my teeth and fists are clenched

There's no happy ending
There's just pretending

I don't share my problems anymore
No I don't really wanna get personal
Over the years I have built up a wall
My scars are still healing
I can't be vulnerable

Some of the worst things I've ever done
Were when I felt sorry for myself
Cursing my own mind and my genetics
All the decisions I regretted
All the mistakes I wish I could forget
Drove me to seek pleasure
At the nearest exit
To escape my personal hell
Seeking sweetness to help the bitter pills go down
So I can hide inside my pitiful shell
And carry all my shame around

There's no happy ending
There's just pretending

I don't share my problems anymore
No I don't really wanna get personal
Over the years I have built up a wall
My heart is still bleeding
I can't be vulnerable

My heart is still bleeding
I can't be vulnerable

Oh, I can't bear another moment of life
Can't stand another experience
I just want to hide
Just want to eat my feelings
And get high
I don't want to be perceived
Even to myself
I want to lie