ekols - reachingautonomy Lyrics

I don't know...who am I?
Can someone tell?
I've been lying to myself and lying well
'Cause through fake laughs and fake smiles
I could distract myself a while from myself
But it's temporary and I found out

'Cause I've been reaching autonomy
And looking for the answer I found me
And through the looking glass
I saw the future not the past
Far behind me
'Cause the answer to myself is inside me

Ah ah ah ah ah
Ah ah ah ah ah

And through the looking glass
I saw the future not the past
Far behind me
'Cause the answer to myself is inside

I'm nearing eighteen I've got a dream
But my inner thoughts are doubting
By twenty-three where will I be?
I try not to think about it
I got enemies one of them's me
I'm insecure and I know it
I hated myself bad for my health
So I didn't hardly show it
And I've been thinking hard and going back and forth
Between stability and what I want
And I'd rather go to sleep upon the floor
Than go do something that I never loved
But it's my life I'm gonna take it

'Cause I've been reaching autonomy (near 18)
And looking for the answer I found me
And through the looking glass
I saw the future not the past
Far behind me
'Cause the answer to myself is inside me

I was reaching
Yeah I was reaching
I was reaching
I was reaching
I saw the future not the past
I was reaching
I was reaching
'Cause I was

'Cause the answer to myself is inside me

(No and I think probably you're right; I think that's what most people are looking for
I think they're looking for an answer outside of themselves and their never going to find it)