Elijah Johnson - Gotta Tell Em Lyrics

I gotta tell em though
I gotta tell em though
I gotta tell em though
I gotta tell em though
Im up stressin'
Momma kept praying instead of anti-depressants
And I just try to sleep it off, her tears is so depressing
Family got cancer and on top, a diabetic
And don't tell me that you feel me if you never keep it real
And you stuck with all this pain and you don't tell em how it feel
But if I'm being honest, couple raps is in the closet
Cuz I'm afraid to drop em and start losing my appeal
And don't ask me how I am if I don't trust you
If don't trust your motives then it's f*ck you
Niggas learned to smile and cut you
I kept it to myself but these thoughts gon' haunt you
I gotta tell em though
I gotta tell em though
I gotta tell em though
I gotta tell em though
I gotta tell em though
I gotta tell em though
I gotta tell em though
I gotta tell em though
I need advice
And I am not seeing who could help me with my life
The position that I'm in only keeps me up at night
And I am just looking for some wisdom that is suffice
Theres are days I feel like I am chosen
It don't make sense because I'm broken
But then I start to hear that I may just be the token
To the game we all play, called life and its open
Season on niggas that really not believing
And I can't get advice cuz you niggas do not believe it
Not even from my Dad and though the statement kinda sad
My momma just wonders why I ain't jubilant
So I'm hurting but keep it secret
Start to think, don't believe it
And at this very moment, still stagnant
Still rapping, still got problems that prove to be problematic
Demons is still subtracting, and I just say it ain't adding
Up, what the f*ck? When will Jesus get a jab in?
I got questions, he ain't answering
I got questions, he just laughing
Tears up in my eyes but I wont let em fall
Another day of class and its gon' set me off
Niggas live they life like they don't see the fall
And it kinda drive me crazy cuz I see it all
Figured I should probably write this track and maybe God will play it back
Send some advice from His Son to a cat
And if he ever hear this I hope he don't feel attacked
The shit was on my heart and I know I shouldn't ask
I gotta tell em tho
I gotta tell em tho
I gotta tell em though
I gotta tell em though
I gotta tell em though
I gotta tell em though
If this song ever gets dropped, it is just to help the one person that does feel like this
I gotta tell em though
I gotta tell em though
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