Elijah Rodriguez - Now or Never Lyrics

I grab a pen
And go in
Every now and then
No matter where I've been
I'm always it
Like an addict
I must admit
This shit
Can be toxic
But I'm sicker
Than most
I never boast
Well maybe a little
When I scribble
Words on a page
You mistake it for rage
This is my therapy
While these other guys
A parody
Of rappers they wanna be
I'm rarity
Yo peep the clarity
Cause I'm finally
Seeing clear
Tell me who you fear
Say my name 3 times
I appear
Grip the mic
And I destroy
Matter of fact
I deploy
All these deadly lines
My flow shines
When I combine
A beat
And a rhyme
So basic
So face it
This fake shit
Won't last
I outlast
But shit let's be honest
I'm beyond this
So I reminisce
When life was pure bliss
Cause I'd be remiss
If I didn't tell you
I almost called it quits
Cause all this stress
Finesse your brain
Into thinking your insane
Telling you
Yo, you need the money and fame
But it's all a façade
Got me praying to god
Like what do I gotta do
To make it
Maybe I'll fake it
But I don't wanna be like everyone else
And dwell
On the hand dealt to me
Tell me who am I supposed to be
A 9-5 worker
That's still living on bigger dreams
Or do I risk it all
And sell my soul for the streams
But now I'm digger deeper
Breaking the surface
Got me searching for my purpose
Like will I make it?
I don't know
But I'll just enjoy the show
And give you a place to go
When everything is f*cked
And your mind overflow
I'm stacking ammo
For my arsenal
Watch me blow
Like Chernobyl
So versatile
At the mic
I wonder what it feels like
To be everything and more
I'd rather sleep on the floor
Than be where I've been before
Yo I'm a nerd to the core
But I accept it
Never deflect it
This beat
I f*ckin' wrecked it
Put this shit in a syringe
And then I f*ckin' inject it
Into the bloodstream
Of a fiend
Yeah you know what I mean
I've been obsessed with rap
Since I turned 15
Almost a decade
In this game
My place
I proclaim
I'll be rapping till the day
You motherf*ckers know my name